KatieKat
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- 5y
Ditto~Ditto~
- Date posted
- 5y
I have times when I feel like I’m looking through glass, like I’m not all the way here. This is not per say my struggle with OCD but just thought I’d share.
jspawjspaw
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- 5y
Ooohhh yeah, you’re not alone. This was a main theme of my childhood OCD. I still have other forms but I was eventually able to pull out of the existential dread by accepting I may never know the “truth”, so I may as well enjoy the ride of life while I’m here. Don’t know if this helps, but it can get better! Hope you find peace.
Ditto~Ditto~
- Date posted
- 5y
Now that I do have! Just constantly trying to understand the world, and trying to find incentive to for it when I don’t know everything I feel I need to know. It leaves me mainly depressed and feeling without purpose.
KatieKatKatieKat
- Date posted
- 5y
@jspaw Yes, it does help. It’s just so hard to accept uncertainty, but it’s also the only way to break free. The worst part is feeling like everyone else “knows” they and everything else exist with certainty, and like I’m the only one who doesn’t. The truth is, other people just accept uncertainty whether they know it or not and assume they and everything else exist. I can’t imagine having this theme as a child. :( I even question logic and whether there are even concepts since this theme has me question everything. Any more tips are appreicated. Doing ERP, but it’s hard.
jspawjspaw
- Date posted
- 5y
I get it, I always want specific, solid answers. I’m trying to accept that the world is full of uncertainty.
kaylin84kaylin84
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- 5y
This happens a lot when I dissociate. Those thoughts also cause me to dissociate lol
KatieKatKatieKat
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- 5y
*appreciated
jspawjspaw
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- 5y
I’m having a hard time with uncertainty in other areas, so I totally get it. I also used to feel annoyed by people who weren’t concerned about reality, it seemed so easy for them! I think a lot of people just take life at face value and don’t bother to think about it much. When existential worries come back, I just try to concentrate on what I like about life, and thank the universe for giving me any positive experiences at all. Even little things, the taste of coffee, sunshine, rollercoasters, etc... I don’t know how or why I get to experience them, but I do!
KatieKatKatieKat
- Date posted
- 5y
I feel like a nut job for doubting whether we are ACTUALLY experiencing anything. I’m so ashamed.
jspawjspaw
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- 5y
I hear you and have totally been there. Hang in there and try to enjoy what you can. 💗
KatieKatKatieKat
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- 5y
@jspaw Thank you, friend. It’s so hard when I try to prove I am thinking and existing, and then to realize no proof will ever be enough for OCD. It will never stop. The only thing I can do is tell myself it isn’t worth wasting a possibly real life. The stakes are too high.
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