Is it a compulsion to constantly test scenarios in your mind? I’m always testing what I like and I don’t stop until I feel like I get to the bottom of it but recently I feel like it’s getting nowhere and just making the thoughts seem more real.

And by always testing I mean almost every second of the day is just flipping between two different scenarios

yeah such a compulsion

Yesssss those are mental compulsions and so hard to pinpoint so that’s great that you have! I do the scenario thing all the time and I don’t stop until I find the correct answer ...or feeling. My suggestion is to NOT do the scenario thing, just keep moving through the day (I know how hard this is but it does help after awhile because you are telling your brain that the thoughts don’t need attention)

For instance anytime I’m with my girlfriend I’m always asking myself either “what if she was a guy” and I’ll start getting anxious so I’ll make sure she doesn’t look like a guy or when I’m scrolling through Instagram I’m constantly checking to see what arouses me and if I get “aroused” (it’s usually just a movement not actual arousal) by the wrong thing I start to panic then I mistake that panic for actual arousal then I panic more and start repeating the same lines in my head

Thank you a ton

That is a compulsion that tons of people with hocd do