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And by always testing I mean almost every second of the day is just flipping between two different scenarios
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yeah such a compulsion
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Yesssss those are mental compulsions and so hard to pinpoint so that’s great that you have! I do the scenario thing all the time and I don’t stop until I find the correct answer ...or feeling. My suggestion is to NOT do the scenario thing, just keep moving through the day (I know how hard this is but it does help after awhile because you are telling your brain that the thoughts don’t need attention)
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For instance anytime I’m with my girlfriend I’m always asking myself either “what if she was a guy” and I’ll start getting anxious so I’ll make sure she doesn’t look like a guy or when I’m scrolling through Instagram I’m constantly checking to see what arouses me and if I get “aroused” (it’s usually just a movement not actual arousal) by the wrong thing I start to panic then I mistake that panic for actual arousal then I panic more and start repeating the same lines in my head
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Thank you a ton
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That is a compulsion that tons of people with hocd do
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I have really bed harming intrusive thoughts and sometimes feels like it’s feeling! The thoughts happening every day and the hardest part is that I’m testing my self in head all the time if that’s what I am or want!!! Also, so many times feels like I’m been tricking myself and doctor or people and maybe I don’t have OCD, just that maybe it’s me really!!!! How can I know who I am really 🥹???!!??
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My OCD is continuing to have me constantly check and check and check! I keep doubting and am very confused! How can I get out of this trap!!!!!
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Sometimes it feels like I’m chasing pleasure with my intrusive thoughts. Like I just keep thinking them over and over, or even making them worse, because maybe deep down I *want* them. And that’s honestly scary. It feels like I’m trying to prove I’m a bad person or even a p*dophile just to see if I feel disturbed enough for it to count as “real distress.” But sometimes, I don’t even feel that bad. Sometimes it’s just… nothing. Because if I don’t feel guilty or sick enough, doesn’t that mean I like it? That I want to keep thinking about it? Sometimes it feels like I like it. And that’s when I spiral the hardest. But lately, I’m starting to think maybe I’m not actually chasing pleasure. Maybe I’m just chasing certainty. This desperate need to feel bad enough to prove to myself I’m a good person. And when I don’t feel that level of distress, I panic. I do compulsions, just trying to force that feeling. But it never feels “right.” It never feels enough. And I get stuck in this loop of testing, checking, pretending to be okay with these awful thoughts just to see how I’ll react. It’s confusing. It’s exhausting. And it makes me question everything about myself. But I think I don’t actually want these thoughts. Maybe I just want to know, with 100% certainty, that I don’t. If you’re stuck in the same cycle, I see you. You’re not alone. You’re not your thoughts. You’re just trying to make sense of something that doesn’t make sense. And that’s okay.
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