I fucked up and asked for reassurance, so it flipped on its head. I asked this,regarding recent events,I also acknowledged my pure o: "Whilst going on my email,I found a horrible chat on my hangouts,I never seemed to have interacted with it or sent anything. I didnt even remember it. it was full of people calling eachother slurs and being racist,and sending in images like nsfw. The ones I can clearly recall were all cartoons,like Wendy (from the fastfood chain),and a few cursed images of gore. A lot of the images are gone because the people in there deleted their accounts so I didn't see everything. Horrified,I deleted it. I didnt report it,I really feel bad for not reporting it, but I was so distressed I just deleted it and was sort of preoccupied with spiraling. I have no way of accessing it or knowing who was there.There was images of a little girls face i remember,I remember looking close just in case for a second and not noticing anything lewd. It was likely somehow edgy or cursed in another way. I cant remember or not,this may be a false memory,but i can't tell if i saw more images of the girls face or just children and just got too scared to inspect them or if thats a product of my ocd,because i just started thinking abt it. It was a groupchat of what was obviously bigoted, scummy teens trying to be edgy,but im still terrified if they went to extents of sending illegal content for ?? I dont know. I guess those gross type of people would think its funny. and i just happened not to notice or have the courage to inspect going through. Im guessing,because i didnt look at the date but most other chats were around this time,I was .15 when I was invited, or 16,which is around the time I stopped checking hangouts or atleast hardly went on in months. I am 18 now and just discovered it,and live in constant fear i sit on a ticking time bomb and don't even realize it. I have tried to find a way to contact google to tell them, but im too scared to call and I cant find if they have a support email,or think of what I would even say. I never sent,or interacted,not even sure if i knew abt it til now,but I worry solely by association or just being there im fucked. My question is: if my worst fear is true,what do I do? Am I in trouble? Should I even be concerned?" And then,in response it got taken down for not being concise,and I'm quite sure the mod hates me. My question is, now,where do I go from here,why can't i let this go? I was always told that no matter what if you get sent something illegal and don't report it then your in trouble, so my whole life feels like its threatened. I know I'm overthinking, I know its ocd ,but some moments, I wonder if I should listen to the thoughts. Im sorry I can't let this go,this thing just opened up a fresh wound . I made things worse for myself, and I feel guilty for inconveniencing people,and I feel guilty because the only way I've been able to feel better is to talk about it over and over,so i know I don't sound horrible. How do I accept this? How do I live with this?