does anyone else worry that some of their ocd symptoms/ proof of your ocd are invalid because they already knew about their ocd theme, and maybe they copied other people with the same theme and have now adopted other peoples experiences and mimicked them? so they don’t really have ocd, they just convinced themselves that they do and subconsciously copied other peoples compulsions and thoughts? because i’m undiagnosed and i have some symptoms of ocd before i found out about soocd, but after i started researching it, what if i subconsciously copied other people to convince myself i had ocd.

Sexual Orientation OCD

ShiningBright

Date posted: 5y

Hi love ! I’m not a psychiatrist or a therapist and tbh I have felt this way myself and when I entered therapy we came to the conclusion this way of thinking is likely OCD . In my experience and in my recovery I feel like I understand my true desires , discomfort etc , if you legitimately fear and worry about it then it’s not a true reflection. But also we gotta live with uncertainty that it could be true . I hope you don’t be too hard on yourself and I am sending you good vibes.

Gaby

Date posted: 5y

I relate to this so much because when this first hit me I desperately needed to know what was going on and like a few days in after my symptoms I found out about SOOCD and then I started getting more symptoms after that and so sometimes I’m like omg what if this isn’t ocd and I’ve been subconsciously adopting these symptoms. And it scares me too. But as I’m doing better I see clarity through the thoughts sometimes and I know deep down what I want. I’m sure we all have insight, don’t give up. We will get through it.

zeep

Date posted: 5y

that’s exactly what happened to me! i hope your right about getting better, this really is the worst :(

Gaby

Date posted: 5y

@zeep I don’t know about you but being positive is always helpful for me even when I feel like there’s no way out. Even when I’m feeling suicidal ideation. Idk if you’re spiritual at all but praying helps me a ton because I feel like everything is gonna be okay afterwards. You will be okay one day. We all will be :)

YesYou

Date posted: 5y

That some deep stuff right there.

zeep

Date posted: 5y

i guess i have trouble trusting myself. i’ve always felt like an outsider looking in on my brain if that makes sense. so like if you asked me what’s the first thing that pops into your head i wouldn’t be able to tell you because they aren’t my thoughts, they are someone else’s thoughts that i can see and hear? but they aren’t clear thoughts that i can see, they are like cloudy? i overthink every thought so they dont even feel like my thoughts anymore. it’s like everyone else thinks in 2d and can understand what they are thinking, but i am thinking in 3d where i feel like i am seeing someone else’s thoughts but in a language i only kind of understand. it’s so hard to explain omg but it’s just like i don’t know what my thoughts are sometimes, and i feel like i’m an exception to thinking normally? i just can’t really interpret my thoughts and emotions clearly, it’s like a cloud. ok i’m not making sense, but oh well lmao

YesYou

Date posted: 5y

@zeep Interesting. Almost like you are your soul and you are looking into your bodies thoughts. Now I'm the one who isnt making sense lol

zeep

Date posted: 5y

@Kc88 yes, exactly! it’s so hard to explain haha

YesYou

Date posted: 5y

are you doing ok?

marimallow

Date posted: 23w

Feeling “not ocd enough”

Does anyone struggle with feeling like their ocd issues are not ocd enough compared to other peoples ocd? Is this an ocd thought itself lol

anonymous00001

Date posted: 23w

Looking for “proof” that it’s not OCD

Hey all, I’ve been having some ebbs and flows in recovery, but for the most part I’ve really had a lot of improvements in quality of life since starting treatment in 2023. Something that really trips me up is ruminating on my past and looking for “evidence” or “proof” that the things that I’m obsessed with are real and not OCD. I spend quite a lot of time doing this. I wasn’t fully aware I was doing it until recently. Example: that I’m secretly gay and lying to everyone (I’m bi), that I’m a horrible person deep down, that I’ve never actually loved any person including my family, that I have the “wrong” political or religious beliefs. I look for proof in every corner of my past. It makes some sense that I think this way because with my previous therapist, who I saw for 8 years and did not diagnose me with OCD, we would look for evidence and proof that my obsessions are irrational and I learned to deal with them that way. At the time it was a lot of health concern and contamination themes, but I literally learned to ruminate and search for relief. But I just kept getting sicker and sicker until I got diagnosed with OCD. It’s a frustrating compulsion that keeps showing up for me. What if these scary things are true? What if it’s not OCD at all and I’m in denial? Have I lied my way into thinking I have OCD? It’s so hard. Anyway, I’m curious if anyone else has come across this in recovery? Let me know your thoughts and I hope you’re well. ❤️

thesunwillco...

Date posted: 22w

diagnosis

i’m terrified to get a diagnosis. What if it’s not actually OCD??? I made a list of reasons why i think so and then i think what if im lying and i actually don’t do this stuff and am just dramatic and i just want to have OCD so then my thoughts are justified?? I have struggled in the past year with Pocd & Rocd and then also some bits of thinking im constantly in danger or being watched? I’m scared.

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