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10 years huh. :') I've been struggling with this for 2 years. Does it ever get better ?
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I've improved twice. But never dealt with this properly. Mostly this time my ruminating pulled me back in but this is so much stronger.
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...sometimes I can see through the bullshit (like when I reminisce over my exes or some of my crushes) but most of the time it gets through and I doubt myself
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I understand. I'm a girl and I'm going through this but opposite. I wanna end up with a guy ! I've actually been able to have a bf for a bit before we broke up(other reasons) and it went away completely, But slowly it came back once we broke up and it utterly crushed me. The first time I even had it was because I was thinking as to why I wasn't having any dates and it got worse. Now it's back , but I don't get anxiety.
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Not having anxiety is good just as long as you don't cause yourself anxiety for not having anxiety. You only had it 2 years. Imagine me. I fought tooth and nail to manage this twice. I forget that I'm not the only one going through this. Sometimes we feel like we are the exception, like somehow it's real for us but no one else. Dont use that as reassurance.
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...and I just got triggered by my brother fml
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This crap is endless. I have had only a few bad external triggers in the past few week but my internal triggers (intrusive thoughts) have been a fucking nightmare. I feel like god is punishing me. I'm being punished.
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No don't say that. Remember, God always has your back no matter what. I get you though, my thoughts have been getting to me as well.
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I dont blame god. I am a sinner. I'm sorry. It's just, I've had a bad week and my line of work doesn't help with this.
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It's understandable. But hey! We'll get through with this !
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@Someone shut up my brain I hope so. Sometimes I lose hope. I will say this, I'm not gonna stay in bed in the morning. I'm gonna go out and do a few things. I'm gonna visit me favorite video game shop and my gym opens up tomorrow (before this particular bout I was going to the gym regularly and despite my difficulties and intrusive thoughts I was functioning although I should've practiced not doing avoidance).
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@jbm421 Haha , me too. I used to be able to enjoy putting on makeup and perhaps attract the attention to a guy. Now it feels like a chore and I feel numb most of the time. It's even worse now since we have to wear the masks out since I can't see people's faces all that well.
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...shit, in the midst of that I got a bad instrusive thought (possibly about what the therapist would make me do) and now I feel like I turned. That was really bad....
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And it involves the gym, fml...
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@jbm421 Just remember to take deep breaths and tell yourself that you're not your thoughts. I try to distract myself by watching something on tv when my mind is plaguing me and I don't have anyone to call.
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I multi task by playing a video game while watching something on my phone but it still gets in my head. This feels insurmountable. Fucking thoughts about gym locker rooms. Even while I was going to the gym, I'd avoid that shit. Some dudes just dont have any shame...
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Yeah I get you. But sometime it's best to y'know , not overthink about it sometimes. Just let it be. I often have trouble with this , which leads me into a spiral into what ifs. But then I try my best to tune it out with in my opinion calming ( if I get too anxious my gastritis starts to act up and I start throwing up). Or as weird as it sounds( me an 18 year old) I go and hug my parents or my younger brother
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@Someone shut up my brain Or , I sometimes take care of children and it reminds me of my thoughts of wanting to be a mother in the future.
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I hear ya. You're very young. Me, I'm 38. I shouldn't be going through this. I should had a life by now (which adds to it) but I was going through a depression when shit started to pop up. It makes me feel like shit when I see a bunch of young people going through this but I'm all old n shit.
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That intrusive thought is fucked. I'm supposed to disregard and accept but that one got to me...
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I had to talk to someone and it was my little bro. He kinda triggered me. Fml...
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