In moments of awkward silence or under pressure, I feel the urge to “confess”. Makes me hella anxious

So long story short: I was in class (zoom) and it was in my friends back pocket cause I am at a photo shoot. And she’s my best friend and has a boyfriend and so she moves the phone and the camera shows and she puts it back in her pocket. I grab my phone and I’m like I can take it and she’s like no it’s fine, and then I got distracted and started talking to my other friends about the whole class and I realized that my hand was still on my phone on her butt. During that whole time I never felt anything and I didn’t mean it as flirting and she knows, but I’m scared cause of that it means I’m a lesbian. Like I subconsciously am a lesbian and since I didn’t have anxiety by putting my hand on her butt I’m a lesbian. But I didn’t feel anything. Even now if I touch a girls butt I don’t. Like I get scared I am and not feeling anything like uncomfortable or anything. I didn’t feel uncomfortable until I realized what I was doing and the lesbian thoughts hit and I got so uncomfortable and scared I’m a lesbian. Do you think what happened makes me a lesbian or subconsciously?? Like I’m so scared and l wanna cry.....do you think I’m a lesbian?? I’m so so scared I don’t wanna be. I have nothing wrong with the label of gay I have the problem with the actions cause I don’t wanna do them and I wanna like and be attracted to guys so badly and I’m just so sad.

Hey can I ask you something about hocd I’m freaking out rn