yrstol

Date posted: 5y

I’m afraid I might’ve promised God I wouldn’t get married

Religion & Spirituality OCD

yrstol

Date posted: 5y

Yea I make vows a lot even like once I was going to go to my friends house and I grabbed a handful of these things and before looking I’m like if it’s 5 than I can go but if it’s more I shouldn’t (aka God doesn’t want me too) I know it sounds crazy

Alyosha

Date posted: 5y

Doesn’t sound crazy. Sounds like OCD. I’ve managed to survive breaking other “vows” so hopefully I can work up to the ones keeping me from getting married. Best of luck to you.

yrstol

Date posted: 5y

@Alyosha Thanks, yea I hope you do. I’ve learned that the less thought and time and importance you give to vows and stuff the less you’ll have them but I’m just having a really bad time rn with this specific thing about getting married

ButterflyStar

Date posted: 5y

It doesn't sound crazy.. I understand. Its ocd and like my story too, along with lotssss of other things lol.

ButterflyStar

Date posted: 5y

Since I'm here and you guys have the same theme as me. Can I ask you a question? 😅 When you think of the word "piety" or "pious", do you think it has negative connetations or its a positive descriptive word? Thank you 😊

yrstol

Date posted: 5y

Piety can be good or bad just depends on the context. There’s a podcast called theocast and they talk about the distinction between piety and pietessness. Give it a listen

Alyosha

Date posted: 5y

We don’t use the word in my church tradition, so I associate it with monks and monasteries, and nuns and abbeys. Martin Luther and Maria von Trapp and the like.

ButterflyStar

Date posted: 5y

@Alyosha I associate it with that too 😂

ButterflyStar

Date posted: 5y

Hey! I deal with the same theme as you so hopefully I can help.. Whats the worst that could mean? What is the interpretation of this thought for you? Then we can look at that 😊

yrstol

Date posted: 5y

I guess it would mean that I told God I’ll never get married and then I won’t because it’s breaking a promise.

yrstol

Date posted: 5y

@threadhead And I would like to get married lol

ButterflyStar

Date posted: 5y

Okay 😊. And what does it mean to you that you might be breaking a promise to God? (I'm asking this to help get underneath the intrusive thought.. Don't worry I have these same Instrusive thoughts with OCD!)

yrstol

Date posted: 5y

It’s just wrong and I would feel bad

yrstol

Date posted: 5y

@threadhead My main concern regarding ocd is going against God and sinning

ButterflyStar

Date posted: 5y

@threadhead The doubt that you might be going against God and sinning brings much distress and uncertainty. With time, a therapist and practise you will learn to sit more and more with uncertainty. Are you seeing a therapist who is engaging with ERP for the obsessional thinking? 😊 I too have dealt with this. But with time, TIME, I understood that God gave me the desire to be married And He knows that at a certain time we may say 'Lord I'll never be married.' and then later on, as things change, the desire is there. And it is His desire to give you a spouse.

yrstol

Date posted: 5y

@ButterflyStar I’m currently not seeing a therapist I ordered a book that’s about ocd and ways to handle it I’m hoping that will help me.

Alyosha

Date posted: 5y

Yep! Me, too. I keep finding ways why it might be breaking a vow if I get married. Sorry you’re dealing with that. Do you have other vow worries?

ButterflyStar

Date posted: 5y

Same I don't really use it, or my church doesn't use it either. Thank you for the podcast suggestion I will do that 😊

yrstol

Date posted: 5y

I’m struggling a lot right now I keep having these intrusive thought about promising not to get married I hate it so bad

ButterflyStar

Date posted: 5y

@threadhead I understand.. Can I ask, are you in the UK or US? The Lord knows how much you are struggling and is with you through this storm

yrstol

Date posted: 5y

@ButterflyStar US, and thanks it’s so bad cause I was doing good for about 2 or 3 days and it came back with a vengence

Alyosha

Date posted: 5y

Hey, there is an online video chat support group for scrupulosity that “meets” twice a month on Tuesdays. I found it via IOCDF. Would that be helpful to you?

ButterflyStar

Date posted: 5y

Oh my gosh! Yes please link it!!

yrstol

Date posted: 5y

@ButterflyStar Yea me too!

Alyosha

Date posted: 5y

Here is the link to meeting info. You’ll need to email Annabelle to ask for the zoom link: https://iocdf.org/support-groups/scrupulosity-ocd-education-support-group/

Alyosha

Date posted: 5y

FYI—I’ve only attended once. I began taking a class that’s at the same time.

andrea_sam730

Date posted: 25w

I feel like a bad Christian

Yesterday I kept thinking about something sad about God like yk when you feel disappointed in God sometimes :( so I had just gotten a really bad thought of God turning into a demon …. And it felt like like I was thinking it for a sec like intentionally… and I quickly started to panic and feel really bad bc I Love God a lot but I’m afraid I committed the Unforgivable sin aka blasphemy my brain gets to addicted to think about certain things I can’t think about

Theocdguitarist

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 21w

Divorce

I have been doing very well managing my OCD over the past few months amidst the most amount of life changes I've had in years. However, today I had something catch me off guard that I just want to get off my chest. I'm getting ready to serve a mission for my church, and I've been spending a lot of time praying and getting closer to God. I've had a thought pop in my head few times that, sometime in my life, I'm going to experience divorce. I've been trying to treat it like any other OCD thought, but today when I was visiting my parents, my stepmom told me a story about when she was younger. She lost her little girl in a fire, and she said when she was young and before that happened, she heard a woman speak at church with her same name that had just lost her little girl, and she had a premonition and a really strong feeling that it would happen to her. She forgot about it, but years later, it did happen. During the story, I thought about my divorce thought, and it felt like it was from God and that it is going to happen. I got instant cold sweats and chills, and it's like my heart just dropped. It was suffocating. I'm worried that it was from God, and that divorce will happen in my life. This terrifies me, because my parents got divorced when I was a child, and most of my extended family members have been through divorces with the minority staying with their spouses. More than anything, I want to build a loving, nurturing family, so this is just really scary right now. I prayed to God about it, and He told me to trust Him. I'm trying to keep it together but I'm just so scared I want to cry.

Tulip1234

Date posted: 15w

Religious OCD

In my head I told God to do something terrible to me that doesn’t even make sense because I’m a girl. I’ve had this thought before but it felt definitely like I felt like I meant it and I didn’t feel guilty I’m scared I’m not a Christian

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