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Honestly I do this as well as make self absorbed speeches about made up horrific things that happened to me just to garner sympathy and feel like I have power / control over how people see me instead of facing the truth ugh. Tough shit.
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Mine are more like ted talks or speeches to my school about mental health etc. It’s odd but I’ve never really thought twice about it!
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I someone act like I’m making a speech to people when I’m alone haha
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I do this! I always thought I was the only one and I feel really weird about it sometimes. It’s really interesting to know that someone else does it too!
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Sounds like youre trying to control the future and receive admiration and avoid rejection. Love yourself more through each morning what you like about yourself, and before bed, even if its repeated. If you cant write it then at least read it out loud. That symptom will soon fade
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I’ve done this ever since I was a child. Like imagining whole conversations with people. I only recently really noticed how bad a thinking pattern it is as it’s another form of control. The same has to be said about schizophrenia too as about three years ago I found out my elderly mum has had it for years. So I guess these traits are further proved through the genetic element. Live stressors trigger what’s just waiting to be triggered.
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Just remember if you have any doubt about “who” is talking to you - it’s ocd. It’s just another compulsion - try to just watch the convos instead being engaged. Don’t react with judgement - just like “OCD is really talking today.. such an odd disorder”.
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sometimes*
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I do that and stand up comedy for literally no audience lolol. I used to not think about it until some girl in high school said that it was a sign of schizophrenia that I was doing that when she overheard me. Which was embarrassing but I also researched schizophrenia so much that I couldn’t sleep for days on end and that’s all I thought about for monthS. Literal hell. And I always shutter when I see scissors because she was using them while we had this convo. Ugh, the mind is wild. These days I’m just horrified by my obsession with proving that I’m actually suffering to people. That’s the only way I can think that I would do that whole “I was beaten nearly to death” routine. Like what the hell ?! Blah, workin on it. So bizarre and I’m super aware of it now honestly which is good and bad lol I’m sure y’all can relate on some level at least
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I do it too. You’re not alone.
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I do this too! So glad to know I’m not the only one.
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I think about it like having imaginary friends as an adult lol. I do notice that since OCD hit me, I talk about OCD all the time so it may be a form of compulsion
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- 14w
Paranoia… I need to know because I’m feeling very alone in this. I’ve never met someone with the level of paranoia that I have. I can logically explain things to myself and somehow my paranoia convinces me of another story. I’m constantly thinking exaggerated thoughts that there are so many scary possibilities. Am I alone in this or what? If so any suggestions on how to calm these thoughts
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I actually didn't realise this til now because I just assumed it was a coping mechanism from when I was really young. But when I tend to get stressed out or overwhelmed, I'll often start talking out loud to myself (which mostly means just whispering to myself because if i spoke really loudly, my mom would hear me lol). But nowadays with my fear of being surveilled, I keep having to catch myself because it's such a habit at this point for me to whisper out loud. Especially with me trying to reason through my false memories or really bad intrusive thoughts. Another compulsion. And then I keep thinking omg did I have my phone with me when I said that. Is anyone watching me rn? What if this person (that probably doesn't even exist) thinks my thoughts are true? What would everyone else think? And then I spiral afterwards. It sucks because I feel like I'm policing myself even when I know these are all just things I'm saying out loud and they don't mean anything— they're just thoughts after all. But I have this worry that if someone overheard me or all of this was suddenly revealed, that it might change how people see me or people might hate me or think i'm a bad person. And then I worry about me being worried about that because then I ask myself would a good person be worried about this? Anyways, another long post with me waffling and rambling. Thank you for taking the time to read this ❤️🩹
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- 12w
First off - I’m sorry, I post here a lot. My thoughts are going to be scattered because I have the adhd/ocd/executive dysfunction wombo combo. Im so embarrassed I am THIS neurodivergent. I swear my brain couldn’t pick one struggle and settle with it. I’m not making these diagnoses quirky personality traits by any means, in fact, in this post im venting about how exhausting and embarassed I am living with a brain like this on the daily. I need to hear someone’s advice please. I love hearing everyone’s advice on posts because it’s so useful, and brings me back down to reality. Everyone on here gives advice so tastefully in a way where it doesn’t feed into the self reassurance compulsion, but it’s also been thorough and constructive enough where it’s reminded me to ground myself in a healthy way. I love seeing others helping others, it soothes me. This community has been so kind, and I’m so happy I found it. I wish I could ask more, but I have so many questions I think it’d drive everyone here crazy lol. I am doing erp therapy now, and it’s been teaching me so many amazing techniques. I’ve been making progress. However, I sometimes have my moments of vunerablity. I’ve been experiencing this especially now more than ever because I am going through a breakup. He did it through text after nearly 9 months together. I’d do anything for him and love him through anything, and he broke my heart when I least expected it. I’d make his bed for him multiple times, but I haven’t done that for myself in years. I’d sit with him for hours to watch and do anything he likes, but he’d never do the same and I’d never do the same for me. I’m also at fault because I was too scared to speak up so I let a lot of disrespect slide. Why did my ocd do that? Why does ocd make me people please even when I don’t want to? Why does OCD make me care so much about things that will never effect me (like wanting validation from a random person on the street and hoping they’ll think I’m pretty enough to look at), but then when it comes to my future or positive wellbeing (like focusing on college/doing well in classes/personal hygiene/health), forces me to not care/neglect myself and those needs? I don’t understand it. Ocd makes me think everything’s a setup or a trap. I can never believe that I am fine right where I want to be. Why am I so hard on myself? Why do I even think this much? I care and feel so deeply but it becomes unhealthy so fast because ocd makes me fixate and I stay there for a while. For some reason I let this breakup define my self worth. I let it topple into the ocd fear that I will never make it in life - that I won’t be successful, I’ll never get the career I want, the love I want, or the life I want. My OCD’s version of “logic” isn’t even logical. Yes, I understand how the breakup means feelings of low self worth which will then topple into feeling bad about other things. But why has my brain been wired to think this way? Why does it seem so easy for everyone else to function normally with life but not me? Honestly this is the first time in my life where I’m dedicated to focusing on myself and learning more about myself instead of others in my life and it’s a very odd and bizarre feeling. I’m excited of course, but I’m also scared. My ocd makes me ruminate like “what if I will never make the most of this life I’ve been given”, “what if I truly have no worth and the most I will ever be in other people’s lives is a background character”, “why do I care if I’m a background character or not? I should feel guilty and ignorant for assuming everyone will automatically like me”, “are people lying to me when they call me pretty, smart or kind?”, “I need to look and sound perfect in both pictures, videos and in real life. I will never be satisfied for accepting who I am now”, and a bunch of other annoying questions. But sometimes it’s like I just can’t take the reality for what it is but at the same time, but I also acknowledge that I know this is ocd talking. This is so, so difficult. Do I make any sense with what I’m saying? Can anyone help?
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