roxi
- Date posted
- 6y
squish squish
- Date posted
- 6y
Honestly I do this as well as make self absorbed speeches about made up horrific things that happened to me just to garner sympathy and feel like I have power / control over how people see me instead of facing the truth ugh. Tough shit.
garden garden
- Date posted
- 6y
Mine are more like ted talks or speeches to my school about mental health etc. It’s odd but I’ve never really thought twice about it!
garden garden
- Date posted
- 6y
I someone act like I’m making a speech to people when I’m alone haha
08230823
- Date posted
- 6y
I do this! I always thought I was the only one and I feel really weird about it sometimes. It’s really interesting to know that someone else does it too!
E-TE-T
- Date posted
- 6y
Sounds like youre trying to control the future and receive admiration and avoid rejection. Love yourself more through each morning what you like about yourself, and before bed, even if its repeated. If you cant write it then at least read it out loud. That symptom will soon fade
SoniclenSoniclen
- Date posted
- 6y
I’ve done this ever since I was a child. Like imagining whole conversations with people. I only recently really noticed how bad a thinking pattern it is as it’s another form of control. The same has to be said about schizophrenia too as about three years ago I found out my elderly mum has had it for years. So I guess these traits are further proved through the genetic element. Live stressors trigger what’s just waiting to be triggered.
pureApureA
- Date posted
- 6y
Just remember if you have any doubt about “who” is talking to you - it’s ocd. It’s just another compulsion - try to just watch the convos instead being engaged. Don’t react with judgement - just like “OCD is really talking today.. such an odd disorder”.
garden garden
- Date posted
- 6y
sometimes*
squish squish
- Date posted
- 6y
I do that and stand up comedy for literally no audience lolol. I used to not think about it until some girl in high school said that it was a sign of schizophrenia that I was doing that when she overheard me. Which was embarrassing but I also researched schizophrenia so much that I couldn’t sleep for days on end and that’s all I thought about for monthS. Literal hell. And I always shutter when I see scissors because she was using them while we had this convo. Ugh, the mind is wild. These days I’m just horrified by my obsession with proving that I’m actually suffering to people. That’s the only way I can think that I would do that whole “I was beaten nearly to death” routine. Like what the hell ?! Blah, workin on it. So bizarre and I’m super aware of it now honestly which is good and bad lol I’m sure y’all can relate on some level at least
Crazy.Cat.LadyCrazy.Cat.Lady
- Date posted
- 6y
I do it too. You’re not alone.
veganvegan
- Date posted
- 6y
I do this too! So glad to know I’m not the only one.
08230823
- Date posted
- 6y
I think about it like having imaginary friends as an adult lol. I do notice that since OCD hit me, I talk about OCD all the time so it may be a form of compulsion
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Scared1
- Date posted
- 22w
Is this abnormal?
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- Date posted
- 18w
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