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I have real event ocd and I can relate to this. I used to search porn sites for myself because I had flashbacks to a time I tried a sugar baby site and got sexually exploited. I had a random irrational thought “maybe I was secretly recorded and I’m on porn sites?” So I would compulsively check porn sites for hours reassuring myself that my reputation is still intact. The key is to sit with the uncertainty. I know it’s hard!! It’s still hard for me to master and I’ve had OCD for years (diagnosed at 14 and now I’m 27). OCD will latch onto anything and twist it to make you think the worst case scenario. Let the thoughts in, don’t judge it, and sit with it. In the long run your body and mind will be used to the fear and not react to it.
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I'm trying. Its good im not alone. I just am so overtaken w guilt and its difficult, but im trying to live w uncertainty and accept the present
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@OpposumTreehouse I think this pandemic is making this extra difficult. I’m processing a lot of memories and trauma now because I have time to sit and think alone. Not that I wasn’t doing that before, but I just have the extra time now and it’s driving me nuts. I think if I was more distracted I wouldn’t be obsessing so much. I’m not sure how much my own experience can help you, but it does help to know that you are certainly not alone. Just that fact alone, and the community that we are here on NOCD, is great. Sending you love and support ❤️
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@Anxiousgirl Thank you,sending it right back at you dude!
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The first step is to give up overt physical compulsions. Have you stopped checking? I also discourage telling us these precise details, as we cannot give you specific reassurance.
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Thank you. Sorry. I think ocd sort of tells me 'if you dont tell them everything then they don't know the whole picture and you'll feel bad later like you lied' I did stop checking. I deleted them to stop checking.
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@OpposumTreehouse No worries, I understand. I'll be honest with you, progress will take a while, but it will happen. Abstaining from overt compulsions is the best step. You will eventually become better at preventing yourself from engaging with these rumination thoughts. I think you are starting to understand that there's nothing to gain by ruminating and you will only feel worse doing so. Realize that just because a thought can produce an emotional response does not mean it reflects a legitimate concern. One day you will be able to remember these memories without the emotional response attached to them and you will see their triviality. Of course, I cannot promise you nothing bad will happen. It might. Accept that possibility with ERP. Accept the anxiety. Don't try to extinguish it. You will make progress.
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@salvation Do you think i can talk abt this event w erp?
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@OpposumTreehouse Like mention it w my therapist
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@OpposumTreehouse Yes, definitely.
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@OpposumTreehouse This is a common problem that I have, don’t fall for it I can tell you now that you’ll only fall deeper into OCDs trap.
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@EtOCD What is?
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@OpposumTreehouse The feeling that when you want to be reassured you have to tell the whole story because maybe there’s some important detail you forgot that would change the entire story. I did this a lot when looking for a reassurance and every time I would come up with some detail that I was afraid would change the entire outcome of the story. Don’t fall for it you’ll only fall into a deeper hole
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@EtOCD I do this all the time. Even when I post on here I think “omg I forgot that one detail. Maybe if they knew the one detail they would change their response to my post”
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@Anxiousgirl Exactly. Glad to know others understand.
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@salvation To the both of you. Exactly. Thats how I feel
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