I feel like I’m going crazy and for the past few days I’ve had this feeling that my brain is sinking. I’ve just felt so confused in ways that are difficult to explain. I just feel like my worldview has changed and I get these crazy thoughts that go along with it that feel incredibly real. I feel weird about the people in my life, I feel like I’m lying or delaying the inevitable when I spend time with them. These feel like my new thoughts and feelings now. I feel like I’m okay with my new thoughts as well but I’m going to keep them secret for the rest of my life until they eventually get to me. Sometimes I don’t even feel like I’m crazy and that all of this makes so much sense and it’s what I’m meant to do. I worry a lot that I’m experiencing psychosis, but if I was, there’s no way I’d be suspicious of it right? I just don’t see how anyone could treat this. I feels like I’m dead set on believing all of this junk and I really don’t know who I am anymore. It comes out sometimes when I do things I used to enjoy or spend time with certain people, but aside from that my brain has warped and broken my thinking. Honestly right now it feels like I’m talking about something that doesn’t exist and that I made up in my head, but I feel so out of it.