This is bad..... now I can’t remember if I was ever happy with my partner... 😞😞 I’ve been so depressed and obsessed for so long I can’t remember anything about being happy... 😞😞 I feel like I never was.... I know when I came home from work I was happy to him bc he made me feel comfortable and relax just by sitting in the room... now I’m not happy anymore... how can I be so sure this isn’t me... a friend with ROCD told me this: If you really wanted to break up, you wouldn’t be so scared and anxious. If a relationship ends people don’t react the way we act when having a OCD spike, Remember that. But this feels too real...

😭😭😭 I’ve been with him for 10 years! I don’t wanna end my relationship!!! I hate it’s making me remember every single time I’ve doubted him! I hate my head I hate myself!! The one person I care about more than anyone in the world is leave!! 😭😭😭 I hate this year!!! 😭😭😭😭

@Mandy7710 I hate this year too The pandemic has worsened this and I am in a long distance Your relationship worked for ten years, so see Nothing has happened yet. We should not feel guilty and fight the thoughts with compulsions Let's do erp well and make our mind understand that it's worrying about things that haven't happened yet

I've wondered if the same would work for me too. Ive experienced the same of what you've just described to a tee.

I had romantic feelings last which felt amazing. But he was asleep. I cuddled next to him to make me feel better. Before all this I always had romantic feelings 😞 I’m attached to my partner which scares me bc I get worried that’s the only reason I’m with him. I’ve never been treated at all.

@kshoemaker625 Same I sometimes think what if therapy makes me break up

@Mandy7710 Yes same

@nimziewd I feel the same believe me

@Mandy7710 Whenever my therapist sends me a worksheet which has such thoughts like what would happen if you give up and all I freeze.

@nimziewd That sounds like erp. The fact that this scares u is proof that it’s your thoughts. I’ve numb myself to the point we’re I don’t feel anxiety. My other friend said she’s confused bc I wouldn’t be cry so much about him and cuddle with him if I wasn’t in love with him. Right now I am blinded. I heard u can have ROCD for years and not realize it if you never got it properly treated.

@nimziewd I need this. I need to do this badly.

@Mandy7710 Even I don't feel anxiety since a week now It's like I have thoughts and I am afraid but because there is no anxiety I feel that thoughts r more convincing

@Mandy7710 Yes even I had symptoms but I never realised I was doing compulsions

@nimziewd I understand... I still cry randomly.. I have unwanted thoughts. I know I love him a lot. I am hoping to be put on medication to help me deal with this. I’m really depressed still as I don’t like to socializing with friends and family. Even now I test myself about if I’m in love with him or not. I was help I felt a random spark of love for him where I could say I am in love with him. It’s just really hard for me to believe it’s not me right now though. I still find him sexually attractive. I just hate how I feel and think when we make love. I started crying when we last made love. 😞