boymom87
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- 5y
tonytiger82tonytiger82
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- 5y
With OCD, the things that you value the most (such as your life) are doubted/questioned with OCD... If your thoughts deal with with compulsions and not wants/idealiogies, you are truly okay... People with and without OCD have suicidal thoughts all of the time... The difference between people like us is that we tend to question our safety or want 100 percent certainly that our thoughts are false...
DianaaaDianaaa
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I get what ur trying to say tonytiger but "if your thoughts deal with compulsions and not wants/ideologies you are okay" is kind of giving reassurance, and also prompting that "checking our ocd thoughts to make sure we don't want to do it" which is a compulsion. All this persons ocd will do is "but you do want suicide dont you"? Which will continue his/her suicide ocd theme. We have to accept our suicide ocd may be real and may not be real. We have to (even though itd agonizing) accept we may do it and we may not. That (and resisting compulsions) is the only way to recover. This method is also proven so please believe that uncertainty is the only way!
tonytiger82tonytiger82
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- 5y
@Dianaaa You are absolutely correct! I truly need to change my thinking process in regard to my overall obsessions. I was very anxious and scared earlier after ruminating on a thought and messed up and went to Google... I truly need to get hold of my reassurance(compulsions)
DianaaaDianaaa
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- 5y
@tonytiger82 No you're good! No shaming here, don't apologize. Ocd can be very tricky. Im just trying to help point out things I seem to think you are doing so you can get better quicker! Recovery is VRRY hard tho so don't feel bad for giving in a bit!
tonytiger82tonytiger82
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- 5y
So it causes it to obsess over our thoughts causing us anxiety
Ocdmomma Ocdmomma
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I go through the same thing
DianaaaDianaaa
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- 5y
Yes! I am recovering ocd sufferer for 16 years and this was my last theme. I had tk expose myself to suicidal posts, movies etc, then feel the anxiety that they would produce. No compulsions. Then I had to listen to a loop tape of me saying "I may or may not kill myself. I will never be certain if i will eventually do it or not" accepting uncertainty and no compulsions, (not being alone for fear of harming urself) and feeling the intense anxiety that comes with ocd is the only and quickest way to recovery! :)
boymom87boymom87
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- 5y
Thank you so your post it gives me some faith that I’ll get over this. Sometimes I feel like it’s never going to get better
DianaaaDianaaa
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- 5y
@boymom87 It does feel like it won't get better. And then the "what if suicide is the only way out and im forced to do the thing i fear the most!?!?!" Thoughts come. but even those thoughts we have to treat as maybe true, maybe not. Who knows? This in itself will eventually help you get better
tonytiger82tonytiger82
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- 5y
*us* not it
Ocdmomma Ocdmomma
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- 5y
Have you recovered from this?
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