i used to relate to ppl who were bi i think. i’m so scared. i saw some girl who said she thought she was bi curious and i think i agreed. i saw tiktoks abt bi girls and i think i related. i didn’t think twice about it, i still identified as straight. i wanted to be straight and i didn’t think about it seriously. i don’t want to be bi. i don’t. i really really really don’t. it doesn’t feel right and it doesn’t make me happy. is it possible to be straight even if i find proof? all i want is to be straight. i never really thought about what it would mean to be bi. i’m scared that what if it felt natural so i never had to think about it, and i knew but didn’t give it much thought? that makes no sense. i’m sorry. i’m so scared. i think i was too young to understand before. i am straight. that's what makes me happy so idc if i find more proof. i’m straight. period. end of conversation. i’m done w this. it’s my life and if being straight makes me happy then i’m straight. i’m done being confused. i’m done. i’m still terrified, but whatever. idk. sorry about this post, it’s very all over the place. i need to get everything out.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Clementine

Date posted: 5y

Why is this what happens in my mind tooo omg. I used to not think too much into what bi actually meant like it didn’t bother me if I kinda related or something but I didn’t question it I just knew I was straight. I don’t feel straight right now but I know I am and it’s what makes me happy and it’s all I want to be I don’t get why that’s so difficult for my brain to understand. I don’t want to be bi and I’d be unhappy if I was. All I want is for my attraction to come back, my thoughts to go and for me to get a boyfriend. I just want a boyfriend and to know I’m straight but when the thoughts are so convincing all this is so difficult. I’m not sure any of that made sense but basically I relate to you

zeep

Date posted: 5y

ugh it’s so hard to explain. when i was 11 or 12 i had like 2 or 3 weeks where i questioned my sexuality bc i looked at my friends boobs. i don’t think i really understood what it meant, but even then i hated the idea of being bi. i think a lot of has to do w tiktok and just ppl being more comfortable with sharing their sexuality, so i think i just didn’t think too much about it/ i knew girls were pretty but i don’t think i was attracted to them. and when i related to stuff they would say/ it was so normalized (like it should be) that it was easy to relate to? idk if i’m making sense haha. i only want to be attracted to boys and that is what makes me happy. i’m so glad someone relates :). i bet that this looks like i’m in denial, it’s hard to explain lmao

zeep

Date posted: 5y

@lypc that period of time is one of my biggest triggers and it’s rly the worst

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