bmurphs87
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bmurphs87bmurphs87
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Positive i just wanna leave my boyfriend just because 🥺
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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😞😞 how I feel
bmurphs87bmurphs87
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I’m trying hard i just got back on meds.. and hope that maybe they will work. But i don’t know :( i care I’m holding onto something tho. I still want to hold his hand, hug him, etc. kiss him, i still boost up a little when he comes home from work. But I’m questioning everything why it didn’t work. We were perfectly fine until this one moment.. and I’ve been off and on since end of June. Two weeks ago i was fine with him no thoughts I’m like we’re just gonna go slow and relax.
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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Sounds like me 😭😭 I was fine before July 7th I was happy. Until something happened and I became obsessed. I obsessed about so many things.... and now this is happening. I love my baby to death 😞 I know I don’t wanna break up... I still cuddle kiss and hug him and I know I don’t want anyone else. I know I love him more than anything in the world... I wanna be normal with him again 😭😭😭
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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I give him head rubs every night before bed.. 😞 i don’t want my relationship to end... My head makes me feel like I’m better off without him 😢😢 I’m so depressed
bmurphs87bmurphs87
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I’m literally holding on. Because i still love laying next to him, holding hands, kissing, etc. perhaps I’m in denial. I’m trying so hard to think I’ll be sad if i don’t have him and i think about it, but then sometimes I’m like I’ll be okay and get on with it but idk. I’m hoping meds will help.
ClangermanClangerman
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Why don’t you think you have it anymore?
bmurphs87bmurphs87
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:( I’ve been fighting hard but idk anymore :/
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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😞 you feel like you know your answer.. 😞 I don’t wanna break up with him bc I know I love him. Maybe I’ve convinced myself that I’m not in love with him... 😭 which I hope it is... I’ve tested myself for years and years... my ocd evolved into this...
bmurphs87bmurphs87
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I think I’m just realizing we may not be meant to be, thinking if he really made me happy or whatever.
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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😞😞
bmurphs87bmurphs87
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I’ve had good days, bad days. Two weeks ago i had no thoughts at all. Not thinking much, like idk. I’m too coward to leave I’ll stay miserable.
bmurphs87bmurphs87
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I think I’m meant to be single. He still wants me in his life and i really would love too but my mind just wants to go :/ ugh.
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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I cry everyday... sometimes I feel like I can’t cry... 😞😞 I haven’t had a good day in 3 months now.... I hate the idea of another guy taking his place bc I love him so much... I’m on meds and it helps numb you but it doesn’t stop the thoughts... 😞 I want my life back to normal with him.... I get the same feelings as you do. But I’ve decided if something did happen I wanna stay single... I don’t want someone taking his place... 😞😞 I haven’t bathed or do the things I normally do... 😞 bc of this.. I wanted to be with him... I’m scared to that I’m in denial... so many thoughts were brought up to bring me to this point... 😞 I don’t want him to be my ex... I wanna be with him 😭😭
bmurphs87bmurphs87
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Yeah i don’t shower much, it’s pretty much like to me “when are you just gonna leave him” it’s not working just accept it but i won’t accept it.
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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😞😞 it hurts a lot.. My friend said if it was me I wouldn’t be crying or scared... I wouldn’t think twice about theses thoughts scaring me if they were truly me... sometimes there is no thoughts... 😞 I trigger myself to feel scared... 😞 I don’t like talking to no one either I don’t like to go outside unless it’s for work... work is hard bc I have to talk to people... when I’m not at work I stay home in my bed all day. I love him so very much and I know I do.
bmurphs87bmurphs87
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@Mandy7710 Yup i literally lay in bed all day too and sleep, I’m not even working, nothing. I was living at his house when this first happened thinking it would help it did, now i stay here during the weekend because i still wanna be with him.. but when he goes to work I’m miserable and feel so wrong being at his house because idk If i want him :(
bmurphs87bmurphs87
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@Mandy7710 He says he sees “me” coming around more often.. and last weekend we were in the kitchen and he picked me up ans i wanted to say i love you, and he said he could see it in my eyes.. something is there.. there has to be 🥺
bmurphs87bmurphs87
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When he talks about date ideas i get anxious because I’m like i wanna do them but i don’t :( i was thinking about my exes earlier too like wtfffff
bmurphs87bmurphs87
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Im so hesitant on saying i love you too :( my mom said i would know if i loved him..
bmurphs87bmurphs87
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I know i still care about him that’s for sure
bmurphs87bmurphs87
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I’m on Prozac and it calms me enough at night to have a good sleep with him.
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