qk
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- 4y
qkqk
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- 4y
Typically there’s always something else that accompanies ocd like low self esteem or ptsd. Ive has emotional trauma and neglect at a young age and I feel like it contributed to ocd or may have even caused it. I wasn’t born with perfectionism, I learned it as a coping mechanism like spacecowboy said. That way I can feel in control.
paynastypaynasty
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- 4y
I experience the same phenomenon; my OCD always re-emerges around a new set of issues, although my pure O OCD has never gone away. Some of my newer OCD subtypes come and go with exposure, but my deepest, darkest intrusive thoughts always remain. I think there is more than just OCD at play. I think it's a lack of self-esteem, a rough childhood, and honestly not knowing what my values are. That's what they always say, right, to make values based decisions instead of decisions based out of anxiety and fear. But if you don't know what your values are, then at best you come up with superficial band-aid solutions.
qkqk
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- 4y
Thank you for the response. I need to know my values, bcs I can’t say them at the top of my head.
mrspacecowboymrspacecowboy
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- 4y
I don't know if its the same for everyone, but thats true for me. I started to develop ocd as a sort of twisted coping mechanism for some other stuff in my life, so I think it cam be true for some people.
qkqk
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- 4y
Yeah, someone here told me searching for the root cause can be a compulsion though. I don’t know how as how would that be a bad thing? It doesn’t make sense, if you want to feel better you have to heal the root cause right
Carl CornettCarl Cornett
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- 4y
Why would that mean there’s a much deeper issue?
qkqk
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- 4y
I replied below
IsidoraIsidora
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- 4y
I actually agree with this, but it is probably different for everyone. What truly helped me was resolving my trauma and learning to cope with my feelings. When I solely focus on getting ERP, I easily get rid of one intrusive thoughts, but another, unrelated one emerges. For example, I might confront my fear of dying, but then get fear of sex, then fear of torture etc. I believe that if this is the case, we might have comorbid disorders. I have been diagnosed with OCD comorbid with MDD and GAD.
qkqk
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- 4y
Yeah, fear is a pretty complex thing to understand. I seriously still think all of this could be related, likely something from our childhood. I’m a Scorpio, so I won’t stop until I get to the deepest wound possible and heal it no matter how hard it is, cause what do I got to lose. I feel your pain going through all these symptoms. 😔 I know if you keep going you will come out on the other side stronger. Don’t let these diagnosis get you down. Say you are going through them, you are not them. Keep doing what you’re doing in erp and thatl help you recognize the chatter in your mind and shut it down quicker
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