This might be a little confusing but any insight or anyone who can understand would help.. I'm a straight female dealing with what I hope is hocd and a lot of straight females I know say that they could never image themselves spending their life/kissing/having sex/being attracted to a woman etc. That it makes them uncomfortable, grossed out, doesn't feel right etc. My mind always tries to make me see it from a man's point of view or a gay woman's point of view and it's almost as if I can understand and feel what they feel about being with a woman and that gives me a lot of anxiety because if I really was straight wouldn't I not be able to understand or relate to that?? And when I think about those things I don't get uncomfortable or grossed out like my straight female peers. Also, I get uncomfortable or don't feel "right" when I imagine myself with certain guys idk if that's "normal" or not...ugh my head is just so overwhelmed Any replies would be appreciated

I think thats quiet normal when dealing with this devil on your shoulder. I even get thoughts like eww... i dont like women. Only a couple of months ago i couldnt get enough 🤷‍♂️

Trust me it's the ocd. Many with SOOCD experience the same thing where they dont feel grossed out imagining it. Idk what it is but its kinda like as if you've become numb right? Dont compare yourself with other girls. They don't have ocd. OCD can be very manipulative.

i get how you feel, i can try to picture myself kissing a girl without being disgusted, but i feel disgusted that i have those thoughts? idk, when i picture myself kissing a girl i feel kinda neutral, like in no way do i WANT to do anything w a girl, it doesn’t turn me on or anything i don’t think. i also understand feeling like u understand how gay ppl feel about the same sex, and it’s not this crazy foreign idea to be attracted to the same sex. i like to think this is bc rn homosexuality is much more normalized and accepted (like it should) so it’s not a crazy idea to me. tbh im not even sure if when i think about this stuff if i’m picturing myself or if i’m picking just gay ppl in general, it’s all so confusing. anyway, long story short i understand how u feel and it is so scary that trying to picture myself doing smth w a girl doesn’t make me grossed out , even though i have no interest kissing a girl if that makes sense.