TW I was doing well the past few days accepting everything...I started watching the haunting of bly manor and it sent me down another spiral and unfortunately I started ruminating and compulsively googling to relieve the anxiety...tw to anyone with hocd or soocd for what I’m about to say. Basically in the show the girl was going to get married to her childhood boyfriend but she was very unhappy and later revealed to him that she was a lesbian and after that he freaked out and got hit by a car and died. And obviously this was very triggering with me having hocd, making me worry what if I will not truly be happy with a man...what if that is not truly what I want...what if I string someone along like that and break their heart etc. now memories and other things are being brought up by my ocd...just when I thought I was getting better at managing it.

Remind yourself it's just a show. They have to be overly dramatic to make it more entertaining.

Oh my god!!! That Show triggerd my ocd so much! I watched it yesterday with my boyfriend and now I‘m spiralig like Crazy!

How are you now? Did you find a way to stop your compulsions and sit with the thoughts? Hope you‘re doing better 💖

Gosh I feel the exact same :( I was doing so much better and that show brought up a lot of thoughts and worries which have been torturing me in the past. So I‘m back at ruminating, checking and googling as well. I‘m trying to use the tools I‘ve learned to overcome this but damn it‘s hard! Just remember that you‘ve been there before and you and you made it through so many times! And also that you are not alone!

Yes that is exactly how it feels :( ocd sucks!!! I‘ve learned in therapy that I should not try to get rid of all those uncomfortable feelings but lean in that’s how your brain learns that you are actually not in danger. I also learned that refocusing and remembering what I actually wanna do with my day helps to stop rumination. So when ocd tells me that I have to figure certain things out I try to stop for a second and think about what I actually want to do instead in that moment. I hope this makes sense 🙈 my therapist says that to live our lives according to our values we don‘t always have to feel happy and comfortable- I can go about my day despite ocd beating me up 24/7. Mindfulness also helps me to understand my ocd patterns and that way I‘m learning not to fall back into compulsions. As you can see all of this is a lot easier said then done especially after a bad trigger because I‘m spiraling again since yesterday :( but the past few weeks I made a lot of progress in recovery and I try to see this as an opportunity to learn more and get further in healing (even though it sucks atm!) I hope this was helpful! Hit me up whenever you wanna talk it‘s good to have people who just understand

Yeah my day was pretty much the same 🙈 but try not to be so hard on yourself tomorrow is a new day where you can try again! I totally understand! I have a boyfriend and we‘ve been together for over 4 years. I want to spend my whole life with him and love him more than everything and for this reason hocd and ocd in general loves to attack our relationship. I have rocd and cheating obsession to ( fun fact: when I‘m suffering with those obsessions hocd doesn‘t bother me any longer - ocd is so weird). Ocd goes after what is important to us. And the more you chase certain feelings the further they get away. At least that‘s how it is for me. I would advice you to not let it take things that are important to you away. Keep seeing that guy you like no matter how loud ocd is. Good luck!