What kind of intrusive thoughts do you guys get with pocd? I feel like mine arent even intrusive and they are just me telling my self stuff. I cant tell the difference anymore :( i want to be normal again :,(.

@🐝 It sucks this is something we all have but im glad we can suffer and push through this together!

@🐝 I have a memory from high school that now thinking about it should have been an indication I had OCD. I convinced myself that these thoughts were so true. I laugh about it now and haven't told anyone about except my therapist because it gives me hope I can get through this too

@🐝 That's the part I'm always wanting for: Being able to look back on this and laugh and not have it judge any of us in the present. It's just so freakishly real sometimes.

@🐝 Mines was from my first day of babysitting. But as soon I overcame that fear OCD basically made me question everytbing about me. I'm a film grad so any case of p*dophjlia in movies and tv shows pops up in my head. It sucks!

@Iwashere It really does suck a lot that it can come up in so many different ways, especially in ways you NEVER intended it to. That's the worst part about it. I just stay away from anything sexual. I don't know if that's the right thing to do but for a while now it feels like my OCD was responsible for mistakes I've made. I'm pretty sure my OCD had began in high school now that I honestly thing about it. I remember thinking no one cared about me or would love me and it was because of that I made so many mistakes that make me so ashamed

@🐝 I've never been on tiktok but I would imagine that it has an insane predator problem since there's a ton of kids on there. It's like this for YouTube as well.

@🐝 Yeah it's absolutely insane. I see this happening on big platforms left and right and there's like an entire list of people doing it. But, in the back of my head, I keep fearing that I could be next, or fall into such a horrible disgusting trap one day. This needs to go away ASAP!

God, I'm so sorry to hear about all of this. I can understand where you're coming from and you're not alone.

@BigGip09 Yeah, its nice to know Im not alone but Im sorry that you share the burden too

I honestly agree. The amount of worry that's given when something like that happens says a lot compared to someone that knows it's wrong and doesn't do anything to stop it

I'm sorry to here that, honestly. Things like that can happen though. I can't bring myself to fully blame someone that thought they had a thing for someone but didn't realize what they're age was. The people I blame are the ones that are aware of the consequences but don't feel bad about it and keep diving into their problem which hurts others.

@🐝 RIGHT?! And then theres people that look like they're literally 1w and they're actually my age 😄

@Iwashere *literally 12

@Iwashere LMAO. Yes exactly. I remember one time my brother showed me this chick that looked my age but she actually appeared to be in her 40s and I was so mind blown.

@🐝 100%. I feel like if I'm never completely sure on a person's age when it comes to communicating with them, I don't go any further to really talk to them so I don't risk anything.

@🐝 SAME. Thank you I thought I was the only one. I think I should probably stop tik tok. Not as avoidance but until I have a good ERP strategy. My current therapist told me not to read into whether or not I find them conventionally attractive or sexually attractive bc it might be a compulsion but I mean how do you not with pocd

@🐝 I get you 100% i might try quitting and do some erp and see if thag helps me not get bothered as much Lol

@🐝 Honestly I feel like that's a thing plenty of teenagers get into. Generally, I myself don't have a problem with dating older women in the slightest, so you shouldn't beat yourself up for that.

@BigGip09 Maybe it's just random thoughts all around and you're really not into men that old.

@🐝 Same!!!

@🐝 For someone to be considered a pedophile, they'd normally have to have genuine attractions to people that are under the age of 13. From what you're saying, you say you are attracted to men that are older than you are. I don't know your age so it's hard to say

@Iwashere Also, one thing that I've considered is there's a difference between knowing what turns you on when you aren't aroused and how different things could get when you're already aroused. Kind of like you aren't who you generally are sometimes when you find yourself extremely horny. These things can happen to people, everybody is prone to doing something they normally wouldn't when they're horny. It's what turns them on when they aren't horny that matters. Just something to take into account maybe

@🐝 Oh! I think it's just your way of transcending into an adult. I don't think there's anything wrong with wanting to get with someone a little bit older at all! It's less of a serious gap when you're an adult, as long as you choose someone above and not lower. I honestly think you're fine. There's famous couples that have large age gaps all the time and I don't think people ever bat an eye about it.