So I'm been doing really good but today hocd kicked my ass. I got this feeling of liking this one girl so I freaked out it felt so real and so I started performing checking compulsions to see if I really wanted it. Sometimes i knew I didn't want and others times I didn't. So I was freaking out and saying im bisexual and I'm straight to see which one felt right. My brain was so foggy and still is and my thoughts are racing I can't think straight. I know I was performing compulsions so therefore I was in the ocd cycle. I should have just left it but it felt so REAL!!! I don't even want to think about her or keep checking but feel like i have to cuz what if I do like her and want to be with her but I'm avoiding facing it and thinking about her.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Sunflower

Date posted: 4y

Ok, i know it feels real, i have pocd, and if feels real too, like 1000%, but the thing is that really doesn't matter, it really don't matter if you are bi or not, what really matter is that you are suffering and has a lot of anxiety, so accept uncertainty, not for not being bi, do it for yourself, because you are suffering and this is the solution.

leham

Date posted: 4y

love this Cherry❤️

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