Course some douchebag on the OCD discord group chat triggers me. I kept telling this dude that I don’t want to be gay or bisexual because it doesn’t fit me and it isn’t right by me. But he continues to fucking ask “why don’t you want to be gay or bisexual” now I’m triggered and pissed.

I’m sorry that’s really messed up. I know how you feel. I’ve been asked that and I just answer “cause it makes me uncomfortable and I don’t want to do anything with the same gender.” Ocd really sucks, this has easily been my worse genre

If the person was being a troll, then I’m sorry. If the persons question was directed towards your fear instead of your thought then I may understand. Think of it like this What are you scared of? “ I had this thought today that I want to kiss my best friend and I knew it was wrong and I can’t understand it.” What are you scared of? “ I’m scared that I secretly want it and I’m in denial” And what about that are you scared of? “ because if I do, it goes against everything I am and who i have known myself to be.” What about that scares you? “ I don’t want to lose myself and be something I’m not.” If that happens, even for a moment, what makes you scared? “ that I can’t control it. I’m scared because I’m not in control.” Your fear is not your thought— it’s how you feel about your thought. When you strip everything down, you are simply scared of lack of control. There are millions of things in life we have no control over and yet don’t really notice. Sorry to go on and on but yes, if that’s what they meant then I get it. If not, they’re an asshole and they shouldn’t be in this chat.

And so? It was a question. So answer it. Normal people say stupid shit like this and don’t feel anything towards it but because you have OCD you think it matters more than what it actually means. You’ll find that these questions won’t really matter anymore once you go through therapy.

I have a friend who says stupid gay shit and in the past I would get scared but now I play along with it until my mind doesn’t want to play along anymore and tell him he’s fucking gay and needs help and that’s that and then we talk about something else.

Don't go on discord. It can be very triggering. A lot of people don't understand how debilitating it can be and can say some very triggering things when we are in such a sensitive and delicate mindset. Just take it one day at a time. You've got this. :)