Struggling with POCD help I’ve been struggling with unwanted thoughts and images for a long time 2 days ago I the thoughts got worse and worse till the point I wanted to self harm. I’m assisted to porn and I tried watching it the thoughts got in the way and I organismed to the thoughts I felt bad really bad I wanted to self harm. Later that day I saw a video the accept theses thoughts and let them go it was about ocd I tried that and now I feel like I’m enjoying them and I’m scared of become or being a P I want theses thoughts out of my head I don’t wanna hurt anyone nor do I wanna be attracted to children idk what to any advice?

Thank you so much it is out of my persona hopefully I can fully recover

I feel numb sometimes I feel like I do enjoy them but it’s not me

@anonynon That's what I thought to until 2 days ago I found myself breaking down in tears because I interacted with pornography one last time. As of now, the thoughts around it sicken me and I can't wait until they finally go away. If porn isn't in your character, then you don't have to force it to be. Please find something as a replacement for pornography. This is only fueling your low self esteem/depression. Not only that, because you use porn whenever things aren't going your way, your mind is telling you that that's the only thing that it thinks can make you very happy. Your dopamine is out of place and that needs to reset. Think about it like this: You find yourself interacting with porn and in the moment you see that you're somewhat happy/aroused, but after it's all gone, how do you feel? I'm willing to assume you'd feel depressed, worthless, ashamed, and guilty after even engaging in the activity. Don't let pornography make it seem like it's good to use when you want to escape reality. Instead, deal with reality's problems in a realistic way instead of running away from it with the use of porn. Seriously, this stuff is real and it's damaging. I hope you get better and I wish the best for you

@BigGip09 Yea that’s what I was thinking I was doing good 3 days ago I was porn free for 16 days since POCD makes it difficult for me to watch porn I’m starting from rock bottom but now I feel more motivated to quit since POCD has been eating me up thank you for your knowledge you are right I use to cope from reality and I must face reality in order to succeed in life I appreciate the comment

@anonynon I'm glad you agree that it's making you feel worse and you're better off without it. You've just accomplished the first step in getting better basically. Now all you have to do is find out what can truly benefit you when you have these urges coming up. I would recommend articles that focus on your issue to try and at least understand the consequences of how porn can impact someone and how like all addictions can leave you so impaired to reality. I have a reboot app that keeps track of the days I don't watch porn, a quote of the day, fact of the day, and a community like this one with people that can relate to you.

@BigGip09 Yea I downloaded “I am sober” and I’ll give it a try thank you porn is like a drug slowly making you do anything just to get your “fix”

@anonynon Yeah man now you're getting it. Stick with that and you'll get through it. One day at a time