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Thanks mate appreciate your input. Mine all started at 22 im 37 now and i was copeing quiet well up to about 2 and a half months ago i stoped my medication for 3 months and shit just got really bad i was watching porn and its like my brain went you like penises now i have been living a knightmare ever since its been hell š
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I dont want to come off the prozac because i think thats the reason im in this mess. I take magnesium glycinate aswel someone told my thats good. I really appreciate your support mate. Top man š
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Yeah stay on the Prozac. Helps a lot after some time. Good luck man š
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I have at various periods of my life thought of hurting myself or others constantly. The only āwhyā to explain its occurrence was OCD.
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You are human, anything in a sexual nature will get you going. What OCD does is it puts too much significance to the idea. Keep trying, at the end of the day you know who you are and what you prefer. It takes time but itās a technique to train the brain to stop worrying. If you worry then the cycle of thoughts wonāt go away I also posted on the main page on how I got over it, a lot has to do with porn escalation
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Thats the problem im scared shitless
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My mind is telling me im into men. And when i think of women my mind goes eww you dont like pussy. Its driving me crazy
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Yeah Iāve been there. OCD feeds on fear so youāll feel tense during this. Best thing to do is give it time, cbd helps a lot with intrusive thoughts/Anxiety
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One day youāll just snap back into reality, and be confused about what the hell did I go through What caused this way of thinking? For me it was a sex scene on American horror story of two men, I got aroused by the sexual nature in general but my Brain went full OCD/panic mode after that. At the end of the day weāre human, we can get aroused by almost anything lol
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Porn is a bitch. Grow to hate it. Chase after women. Mine started at 22 as well. But stopping porn minimized my symptoms. There is the evidence in what you said, you went back to it, fetishes can come back even faster. People with OCD cannot do porn and thatās the sad truth about it/: but in exchange you get benefits in life.
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I just want to love women the way i did but i feel like they have been replaced by men. Also i get grional responses in my back side i cant even bend over without getting an image šš
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Those are fetishes. There are gay men who think they are attracted to females and get grional responses in the front. Look at your past, in high school or lowere did you ever think about men?
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No never
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For me Iāve been straight my whole life, then at 22 my OCD started. If youāve been straight your whole life thatās Huge evidence that it might be OCD
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I had a gf for 6 years when i was younger and i was gutted dont know if that was anything to do with it š
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Do you have other thoughts? As in Harm OCD etc?
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Yeah same never had anything till then. Then one night it was like bang š¤·āāļø
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Try CBD as well , helped me feel normal. Itās not THC so you wonāt get high. Itās the medicinal properties of the plant. It literally made me feel like myself when I took them
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No but before all this i was suffering really bad with anxeity and panic attacks i used to be a bit of an hypocondraic dont know if i had health ocd or something ?
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Whats cbd ?
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Itās legally available. They take out the medicinal properties from marjuana. Thereās a lot of research that it helps people with OCD. So when I tried it, I was so happy that it made me full normal, I could think straight. Aroused by woman. Taking it basically told me that something was wrong with me, that all those thoughts were from OCD. Because after ingesting it, no more bad thoughts.
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Yeah same here. Looks like you have the same story as me on how I started out. I took a dab once of wax and thought it got washed with chlorine. It put me into full panic mode and ambulances came(it was my first panic attack) . I was healthy by the end of it all. It was embarrassing but thatās what OCD does to you
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So you think its all linked ?
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Yes most likely. People with OCD suffer from panic attacks/Anxiety/urges/impulsivity/depression etc
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How are you doing now?. How did yours all start ?
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I just feel like these thoughts are constant š
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Much better, I still have depression and anxiety but way less than how it was before. And for me it started after I saw a sex scene of American horror story of two men. Then went to the theater to watch JOKER. It fucked me up lol then I thought I was going crazy, felt I was a bad person for having urges/thoughts of the worse things imaginable, couldnāt even be around my lil brother... I almost threw up at the thought of me committing these acts. I had enough, was desperate for help, appointments were months away. So I admitted myself to a mental hospital where I stayed for 2 weeks. I was already taking Prozac, and trying all sorts of pills. Finally I was ready to go home after my thoughts went away.. either the Prozac finally kicked in or my episode just faded away. I then tried CBD to eliminate the remaining symptoms that I had. And it helped me snap back. Donāt get me wrong I still get these thoughts but once in a blue moon as it should be.
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Im really scared mate. Im not going to get back to where i was. I just have men on my brain and i make comments like hes fit and i want his cock its fucking unreal
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Try CBD and quit porn for good. Never go back to it. Limit watching R-rated films/TV shows. Balance what you watch basically. Do this and see where it goes. And if it fails trust me itās not the end of the world. At the end of the day you might be Bi-curious. Nothing wrong with that. And I know how that may feel, you donāt want to hear that part thatās why itās a last option. I honestly think the whole world is bi-curious. Weāre creatures that like to fuck lol itās just what you prefer(:
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How do i get cbd. Ive been on prozac
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How do i get cbd?. Ive been back on prozac for 2 and a half months and not much change. Did you use to say stuff in your head ?
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You can order them online, go to a local marijuana despensary thatās legit, or some pharmacy stores have some. You can get them as drops/gummies/pill form. Gummies worked best for me.
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Can i get them from the uk ?. Also did you have attraction to guys in some way? What thoughts did you used to have ?
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And by say stuff in your head do you mean by my voice, or hearing other toned voices ? I mostly heard my own voice, Iād have huge dialogues in my head. If itās your voice and no somebody elseās itās not schizophrenia.
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Yeah like saying stuff in your head ?
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And yeah I did, I thought I was gay. I told my gf and it was a huge mess but deep down I knew it wasnāt true, Iāve seen gay sex scenes before and I have gay friends and never felt a thing. I was attracted to men and sick to say this I also had POCD. I couldnāt hang out with my little brother, it haunted me too much. If I was too close to a guy Iād think of his lips, Iād get anxiety. Itās all gone now. Sometimes I get groinal responses but I know thatās just because it was of a sexual nature.
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Even fucking will smith from men in black lol. Iāve seen that movie 100 times, and after my stressful incident I all of a sudden became attracted to him. Iām not anymore
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I got grional responses in my back side and loads of anxiety When there were 2 gay men together and talking about gay stuff
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Just because you think theyāre attractive it can cause that anxiety too. Models.. Men or woman. Your brain tricks you thinking āoh heās attractive, time to get anxiety and flow blood down to that areaā itās a respond that you need to break apart from. Why ERP helps so much
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I can get cbd from amazon whats the best one?. Also can i take it with prozac ?
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Iām not sure youāll have to trust yourself on whatās the best brand but try to make sure they are legit and not fake gummies.
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And yeah I think so ask your dr. I took it with Prozac for a bit.
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Did you get thoughts constantly ? This just doesnt feel right somehow
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You gone mate ?
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Sorry went to go eat lol but yeah 24/7 your thoughts donāt leave you alone. I used to pace back and forth with my arms crossed tight cause they cause me so much distress.
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I had harm OCD too where I feared I was going hurt someone
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Its fucking me up mate
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surely if i was gay i wouldnt be in this distress i keep breaking down. About 3 months ago i was chasing women about couldnt get enough. I dont think i could have loved women more than i did im so fucked off
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Just tell yourself youāre bi-curious that has helped me. It calms you down from going back and forth with yourself. Youāll always be curious no matter what throughout your life. At the end of the day youāll know who to marry and love. The rest is just LUST
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If you werenāt gay in high school or around there then your true side is straight.
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Cheers mate appreciate your help
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No problem man, youāll look back at this one day just as many of us do when we recover. Just be wary it comes and goes throughout your life.
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I never questioned myself until i was 22 just bang all of a sudden after 1 thought
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What kind of images did you get ?. I get images of guys in there pants etc or when i look into the garden i get images of muscular guys with there tops off. Its fucked up
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For me my images were horrifying, I wish I saw naked men lol I thought they were delusions at first but images can be part of intrusive thoughts. Mine were violent, everywhere I saw, especially woman I would imagine a gory image of them. They flashed through my head. Couldnāt look people in the eyes. Sometimes it would happen when I looked at men too. Iād get flashing images of every dark showe Iāve ever watched. Everything that went against my morals just came back to haunt me at once
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Sorry to hear that mate. Just walked in the bathroom and got a image of one of the jonas brothers walking towards me with tight boxer shorts on š
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Now you have me that image lol tell him to get his ass back home
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Gave
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Lol fucksake sorry mate
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I did i said get the fuck out lol
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All good lol well I hope I made your day better and gave you all the information that helped me through my OCD(: wish I could tell everyone with OCD but itās difficult. If it works for you spread it and help another fella out lol
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You mean the cbd ?. Yeah of course i wouldnt wish this on anyone. How long did it take for you to get where you are now ?
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CBD and the techniques, and how to prevent another episode. And my episode lasted for more than 3 months. I still have OCD as in suicidal thoughts, depression and I have the same routine everyday, I still isolate at times. Why Iām going to therapy to help me with getting out this depressing routine. But itās mostly just depression now, Iāll take over my episode any day
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Yeah same. Im going to see how the prozac goes first because ive only been back on it 2 and a half months. Cheers mate
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Yeah give it 3 months, takes 8 weeks to start noticing changes. And good luck man, wish you the best. Iām here if you have any questions or breakdowns.
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Can i ask mate did you used to so gay stuff in your head ?. Like i just said i want his big package š.
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No it was always questioning. Like āam I attracted to his abs?ā Never wanting it tho
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But i know i dont tho š
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I just said to myself in the mirror im gay. But it just doesnt feel right im so confused
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Im really struggling again didnt feel to bad yesterday in the evening
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Meditate during these moments. It really helps clear the mind.
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Have to hear your breathing for more than 5 minutes though. Focus on your body and not the outside world.
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I feel like im in denial. I dont want these thoughts in my head. I feel like im acting talking and look gay aswel ?
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Im worried mate
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I keep thinking im going to have to leave my family because of this
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I need help
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You alrite mate ?
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Sorry mate really struggling
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If you have a gay friend ask them for advice. They will understand what youāre going through. Some gay men are really pushy though so be careful, theyāll insist your gay and wonāt even care about your OCD.
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Hey sorry I took so long, but how are you feeling rn? And is your family very religious/skeptical about Sexuality changes?
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Take this advice if you want cause I know how distressing calling yourself this can be. But try to just tell yourself youāre āBi-curiousā Not Bi-sexual, Not Gay. This just lets you know youāre human with thoughts. Youāre curious about Everything. If you really feel like your in denial ask a trusted friend to help you out. Give him a kiss and hug to see how you feel, if theyāre comfortable with it. Some men with Sexuality OCD feel disgusted with themselves after committing a gay act, and it proves to them that it was ocd the whole time. Thoughts can go away with the ultimate reassurance. Facing the fear.
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No fuck that i dont want to kiss no man lol. My family would support me i just dont want this for myself
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Then give it time and try out the techniques Iāve learned throughout my experience with OCD. Get cbd for these types of days. Theyāre anti-psychotics and have the ability to restore chemical imbalances in the brain .
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@JohnnyisMe Why I gained my arousal back, Prozac is similar to cbd but they still differ. Les side effects from cbd
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Cheers man. How many mgs were you on ?. Im on 40mg
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How you doing mate ?
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It feels like Iām lying to myself constantly and everyone. There feels like there is a weight on my heart from the moment I wake up till I go to sleep. I donāt want to be gay. Idk why it doesnāt register. Now everyone I see I have to see if Iām attracted to them. I see good looking men and I feel like Iām lying to myself that they are good looking, I see women and I see if im attracted to them. I look at everyone and I feel jealous. I want my fucking life back. But now my OCD (if this is even OCD) is telling me I was never happy and I was always suppressing my feelings of being gay. Why is this happening? Can OCD do this? I canāt enjoy anything ever.
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Idk what else to title this. I was watching a film cooper video cuz why not and he mentioned smthn about wall paper customization and icons and stuff and I just kinda had a groinal response followed by the memory of me having my first crush on a woman (my friend at the time) that helped me figure out that Iām bi and I felt kinda intensely for her but thatās cuz a) it was new and b) we were kinda on again off again friends who havenāt spoken in a few years now and Iām over her entirely. It was toxic I think. She was too much like the person who bullied me in elementary school (they were friends as well so my mom made me cut her off which is. Fair. Made me really sad but eh thatās life) I saw her at prom cuz someone brought her. It was nice to see her but yeah that was it. And now Iām mentally comparing what I felt for women in the past (idk intense crush, listening to a lot of gay songs (think she by dodie) dressing semi masc cuz funky, we had nicknames for each other despite not dating or anything) to men (less intense crush but still big crush, Iāve only dated and kissed men so sparks rhere) and now Iām just slightly nauseous and worried that I donāt like men as much as I like women but I think thatās normal for any bi person? To have different levels of attraction to different genders? Idk I feel gross and icky now like I shouldnāt even be thinking about it or her cuz I have a bf. And I do look fondly upon it, now Iām nervous cuz I got more excited about her calling me a specific nickname than I do from my bf calling me honey even at the beginning? Honey felt more traditional and I love it but we do switch around nicknames and itās always nice, not many butterflies anymore, and sometimes I get anxious when he does lately, if itās a nickname in Portuguese. Or if he called me a shortened version of my name. What does that mean? Iām nervous now. I was doing half decently today now Iām nauseous again. Iām worried that cuz I liked the nicknames she and I had that means I donāt like the ones my bf and I have and that I just donāt like him or men cuz Iāve been feeling off around him. But I love when he calls me honey, it still feels good when he does it now but no butterflies. Idk whatās wrong with me. Is it even ocd at this point. Even if I do like women slightly more it doesnāt erase that I love my bf. Iām worried Iām leaning too much towards women tho and Iām a lesbian. Idk if my bi cycle is cycling or if Iām just a lesbian entirely cuz I donāt feel much when my bf takes off his shirt, sex feels different, and things feel stale and slow. But maybe thatās cuz Iām checking and comparing. Now Iām anxious fuck. Iām trying not to think about her idk why. Iām worried I still find her attractive or am attracted to her or smthn. Sheās in my city. I didnāt care before but now I do. Or if I think about her Iāll think about other women and will only want to have sec with women which not really tbh. I wanna be able to enjoy sec with my bf. It just hasnāt felt right lately cuz Iāve been so depressed and obsessive. I wasnāt obsessing much last night when we had sex but it still didnāt feel passionate. It didnāt feel uncomfortable but I thought itād be more? Idk. I know itās normal to not feel him inside me cuz the vagina isnāt very nerved up compared to the clitoris but it felt like more the motions. But tbh. I needed it. Idk I wanted to have sex and it was a nice stress relief. I just didnāt feel butterflies which kinda bummed me out but weāve been having sex since august so thatās normal. Idk. I havenāt been able to fantasize about sex. The fact that Iām bi makes all of this so confusing. Cuz yes hypothetically I can enjoy the thought of sex with a woman. But I donāt want to rn cuz Iām dating a man. And I canāt fantasize about sex with him cuz Iām getting intrusive thoughts about my friends and I having sex. I have this urge to watch porn cuz itās been a while but Iām not going to. Iāve cut down a lot on masturbation. Partially cuz this partially cuz I wanna do things with my bf (when Iām mentally ok) but jow my brain is saying āOo you think all these women are so hot youāre gonna go feral blah blah blahā and yes women are hot but I donāt wanna have sex with a woman. Idk saying women are hot doesnāt bring me anxiety but the thought of sex with one or leaving my bf and saying Iām a lesbian bother me. Cuz I know itās not true. I love him I know that. Iād be happy if we stayed together. I wouldnāt regret a thing honestly. I like having sex with him. Idc if itās not like porn or the movies. As long as Iām being pleasured and heās being pleasured weāre good. Thatās what sex is about. I think the loss of butterflies is normal cuz the excitement of like (sorry tmi) fingering and oral eventually wears off right? But still feels good. I donāt feel as excited about intimacy anymore cuz we have done it so often but it still feels nice. But my brain perceives that as me not liking sex with men and therefore Iām gay. No I just donāt feel the need to jump his bones every single time I see him?? Idk the friend thing is bothering me. Idk if I feel any joy behind it. The groinal response really really throws my perception off
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Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now theyāre just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself itās two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself itās alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if itās just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but itās confusing. On top of that Iāve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like Iād be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk Iāve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that Iām straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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