How can i be constanly thinking of men. I just dont get this. I feel like if i go ok im gay its not going to change anything because its not what i want and i dont want the thoughts to be there ?😞

Thanks mate appreciate your input. Mine all started at 22 im 37 now and i was copeing quiet well up to about 2 and a half months ago i stoped my medication for 3 months and shit just got really bad i was watching porn and its like my brain went you like penises now i have been living a knightmare ever since its been hell 😞

I dont want to come off the prozac because i think thats the reason im in this mess. I take magnesium glycinate aswel someone told my thats good. I really appreciate your support mate. Top man 👍

I have at various periods of my life thought of hurting myself or others constantly. The only “why” to explain its occurrence was OCD.

You are human, anything in a sexual nature will get you going. What OCD does is it puts too much significance to the idea. Keep trying, at the end of the day you know who you are and what you prefer. It takes time but it’s a technique to train the brain to stop worrying. If you worry then the cycle of thoughts won’t go away I also posted on the main page on how I got over it, a lot has to do with porn escalation

Thats the problem im scared shitless

My mind is telling me im into men. And when i think of women my mind goes eww you dont like pussy. Its driving me crazy

Porn is a bitch. Grow to hate it. Chase after women. Mine started at 22 as well. But stopping porn minimized my symptoms. There is the evidence in what you said, you went back to it, fetishes can come back even faster. People with OCD cannot do porn and that’s the sad truth about it/: but in exchange you get benefits in life.

I just want to love women the way i did but i feel like they have been replaced by men. Also i get grional responses in my back side i cant even bend over without getting an image 🙈😞

Those are fetishes. There are gay men who think they are attracted to females and get grional responses in the front. Look at your past, in high school or lowere did you ever think about men?

No never

For me I’ve been straight my whole life, then at 22 my OCD started. If you’ve been straight your whole life that’s Huge evidence that it might be OCD

I had a gf for 6 years when i was younger and i was gutted dont know if that was anything to do with it 😞

Do you have other thoughts? As in Harm OCD etc?

Yeah same never had anything till then. Then one night it was like bang 🤷‍♂️

Try CBD as well , helped me feel normal. It’s not THC so you won’t get high. It’s the medicinal properties of the plant. It literally made me feel like myself when I took them

No but before all this i was suffering really bad with anxeity and panic attacks i used to be a bit of an hypocondraic dont know if i had health ocd or something ?

Whats cbd ?

Yeah same here. Looks like you have the same story as me on how I started out. I took a dab once of wax and thought it got washed with chlorine. It put me into full panic mode and ambulances came(it was my first panic attack) . I was healthy by the end of it all. It was embarrassing but that’s what OCD does to you

So you think its all linked ?

How are you doing now?. How did yours all start ?

I just feel like these thoughts are constant 😞

Much better, I still have depression and anxiety but way less than how it was before. And for me it started after I saw a sex scene of American horror story of two men. Then went to the theater to watch JOKER. It fucked me up lol then I thought I was going crazy, felt I was a bad person for having urges/thoughts of the worse things imaginable, couldn’t even be around my lil brother... I almost threw up at the thought of me committing these acts. I had enough, was desperate for help, appointments were months away. So I admitted myself to a mental hospital where I stayed for 2 weeks. I was already taking Prozac, and trying all sorts of pills. Finally I was ready to go home after my thoughts went away.. either the Prozac finally kicked in or my episode just faded away. I then tried CBD to eliminate the remaining symptoms that I had. And it helped me snap back. Don’t get me wrong I still get these thoughts but once in a blue moon as it should be.

Im really scared mate. Im not going to get back to where i was. I just have men on my brain and i make comments like hes fit and i want his cock its fucking unreal

Try CBD and quit porn for good. Never go back to it. Limit watching R-rated films/TV shows. Balance what you watch basically. Do this and see where it goes. And if it fails trust me it’s not the end of the world. At the end of the day you might be Bi-curious. Nothing wrong with that. And I know how that may feel, you don’t want to hear that part that’s why it’s a last option. I honestly think the whole world is bi-curious. We’re creatures that like to fuck lol it’s just what you prefer(:

How do i get cbd. Ive been on prozac

How do i get cbd?. Ive been back on prozac for 2 and a half months and not much change. Did you use to say stuff in your head ?

You can order them online, go to a local marijuana despensary that’s legit, or some pharmacy stores have some. You can get them as drops/gummies/pill form. Gummies worked best for me.

Can i get them from the uk ?. Also did you have attraction to guys in some way? What thoughts did you used to have ?

And by say stuff in your head do you mean by my voice, or hearing other toned voices ? I mostly heard my own voice, I’d have huge dialogues in my head. If it’s your voice and no somebody else’s it’s not schizophrenia.

Yeah like saying stuff in your head ?

And yeah I did, I thought I was gay. I told my gf and it was a huge mess but deep down I knew it wasn’t true, I’ve seen gay sex scenes before and I have gay friends and never felt a thing. I was attracted to men and sick to say this I also had POCD. I couldn’t hang out with my little brother, it haunted me too much. If I was too close to a guy I’d think of his lips, I’d get anxiety. It’s all gone now. Sometimes I get groinal responses but I know that’s just because it was of a sexual nature.

Even fucking will smith from men in black lol. I’ve seen that movie 100 times, and after my stressful incident I all of a sudden became attracted to him. I’m not anymore

I got grional responses in my back side and loads of anxiety When there were 2 gay men together and talking about gay stuff

Just because you think they’re attractive it can cause that anxiety too. Models.. Men or woman. Your brain tricks you thinking “oh he’s attractive, time to get anxiety and flow blood down to that area” it’s a respond that you need to break apart from. Why ERP helps so much

I can get cbd from amazon whats the best one?. Also can i take it with prozac ?

I’m not sure you’ll have to trust yourself on what’s the best brand but try to make sure they are legit and not fake gummies.

And yeah I think so ask your dr. I took it with Prozac for a bit.

Did you get thoughts constantly ? This just doesnt feel right somehow

You gone mate ?

Its fucking me up mate

surely if i was gay i wouldnt be in this distress i keep breaking down. About 3 months ago i was chasing women about couldnt get enough. I dont think i could have loved women more than i did im so fucked off

Just tell yourself you’re bi-curious that has helped me. It calms you down from going back and forth with yourself. You’ll always be curious no matter what throughout your life. At the end of the day you’ll know who to marry and love. The rest is just LUST

If you weren’t gay in high school or around there then your true side is straight.

Cheers mate appreciate your help

No problem man, you’ll look back at this one day just as many of us do when we recover. Just be wary it comes and goes throughout your life.

I never questioned myself until i was 22 just bang all of a sudden after 1 thought

What kind of images did you get ?. I get images of guys in there pants etc or when i look into the garden i get images of muscular guys with there tops off. Its fucked up

For me my images were horrifying, I wish I saw naked men lol I thought they were delusions at first but images can be part of intrusive thoughts. Mine were violent, everywhere I saw, especially woman I would imagine a gory image of them. They flashed through my head. Couldn’t look people in the eyes. Sometimes it would happen when I looked at men too. I’d get flashing images of every dark showe I’ve ever watched. Everything that went against my morals just came back to haunt me at once

Sorry to hear that mate. Just walked in the bathroom and got a image of one of the jonas brothers walking towards me with tight boxer shorts on 🙈

Now you have me that image lol tell him to get his ass back home

Gave

Lol fucksake sorry mate

I did i said get the fuck out lol

All good lol well I hope I made your day better and gave you all the information that helped me through my OCD(: wish I could tell everyone with OCD but it’s difficult. If it works for you spread it and help another fella out lol

You mean the cbd ?. Yeah of course i wouldnt wish this on anyone. How long did it take for you to get where you are now ?

CBD and the techniques, and how to prevent another episode. And my episode lasted for more than 3 months. I still have OCD as in suicidal thoughts, depression and I have the same routine everyday, I still isolate at times. Why I’m going to therapy to help me with getting out this depressing routine. But it’s mostly just depression now, I’ll take over my episode any day

Yeah same. Im going to see how the prozac goes first because ive only been back on it 2 and a half months. Cheers mate

Can i ask mate did you used to so gay stuff in your head ?. Like i just said i want his big package 😕.

But i know i dont tho 🙈

I just said to myself in the mirror im gay. But it just doesnt feel right im so confused

Im really struggling again didnt feel to bad yesterday in the evening

Meditate during these moments. It really helps clear the mind.

Have to hear your breathing for more than 5 minutes though. Focus on your body and not the outside world.

I feel like im in denial. I dont want these thoughts in my head. I feel like im acting talking and look gay aswel ?

Im worried mate

I keep thinking im going to have to leave my family because of this

I need help

You alrite mate ?

Sorry mate really struggling

Hey sorry I took so long, but how are you feeling rn? And is your family very religious/skeptical about Sexuality changes?

No fuck that i dont want to kiss no man lol. My family would support me i just dont want this for myself

Cheers man. How many mgs were you on ?. Im on 40mg

How you doing mate ?