at this point i actually feel sexually attracted to girls it feels like i actually want to date them and have sex with them and i don’t want to but i’m scared what if i’m in denial i really don’t want to be gay i miss how my life was before all of this ugh i just want to cry my eyes out

Did someone say porn , you a veteran on that?

@pacient 0 Been watching since I was 12 lol stopped it all and fetishes go away. CBD helped me through it too.

@JohnnyisMe Eyy me too maybe earlier and what do you mean escalations?

@pacient 0 Well you get into more extreme categories. If woman don’t do it for you anymore, ideas will, if bondage doesn’t do it for you, then what’s there left to do? You move on to being aroused at the taboo idea that you like men when you don’t. It’s a fetish. You get POCD from this too.

@JohnnyisMe Like get scared to see a child maybe that describes me too?

@JohnnyisMe Now I quited porn for 2 or 3 days but even If I ejaculate I cant ejaculate in peace even after what I did once which I never liked to do

@pacient 0 Yeah I couldn’t be around my little brother. Fear consumed me. You need to get off porn for good. People with OCD can’t watch porn. I had to force myself to stop because I didn’t want to ejaculate at the idea of the intrusive thoughts. They were 24/7

@pacient 0 You need about 3 months or more of detoxing from porn. Look up Nofap everything is there

@JohnnyisMe I did something more useful I blocked every browser page and is it ok to ejaculate to an intrusive thought? 😣

@JohnnyisMe I went to straight porn for girls and ended up ejaculatin to penis 3 times 😭

Hahahah what a coincidence!! But no i don’t watch a lot of porn honestly, but i feel the same as you HOCD is making me thing i like these girls an i want to be with them and that it’s gonna be so exciting when i absolutely love fantasizing about guys, I’ve always loved dreaming about getting married and having a boyfriend, pretty much that whole cinderella story every girl dream of.

@stephanie I honestly just wish this HOCD can go fuck itself. I only want to be with a girlfriend that’s my age and have a wife and two kids one day. Why cant I have that? Because of this stupid HOCD

@helpplz To both of you, another explanation could be that we’re animals, we love to fuck, almost anything can turn someone on. I honestly believe the whole world is Bi-curious. But at the end of day you know who you want to get married to and love. The rest is just LUST

@JohnnyisMe Please don’t say that. I don’t want to be bicurious man. I just want to be straight. I don’t want to be anywhere near someone of the same sex romantically

@helpplz I get you, when I went to therapy they kept telling me if I was in denial... I knew I wasn’t. For example, in high school I chased after woman, then after my ocd episode i got Sexuality OCD. I used to watch Men in black 100 times, never thought one gay thing and after what I went through I hated feeling attracted to Will fucking smith lol why all of a sudden? I knew it wasn’t right. Then I came upon people with success stories. They Fought Fire with Fire. You have to use your mind to fight the mind and trick it back. When I say tell yourself you’re bi-curious I don’t really mean it. At the end of the day you know who you are. It’s just a way to calm the brain down from these intrusive repetitive thoughts. If that makes sense? Sorry should have better explained it but it’s hard to understand lol

@helpplz Once you’ve trained your brain to snap out of intrusive thoughts then finally you can stop calling yourself that. It’s just a technique to give you peace if it works