I am so scared I won’t be able to kiss or make love to my puddin again..!! 😭😭😭 is my relationship really gonna end! Bc I feel like I really don’t wanna do anything like that with him again... 😭😭 bc it feels like I don’t wanna do that with him anymore when I want to.. 😭😭

Thank you 😭😭

@Mandy7710 🥰

@nimziewd I am nervous bc my husband is depressed badly about his job and when he gets depressed he gets angry. Which I don’t blame him. But I am nervous bc my brain or me is like can I deal with his anger forever? I gave him a back rub to calm him down and it helped. The making love thing I am still scared of

@Mandy7710 What is forever anyways, just do it, now is what matters for us. Let the thought flow but not through actions... Do what you had planned and thoughts will soon make no sense and fade away. Will take time

@nimziewd I know I get nervous my tummy is tight? I just wanted him to feel better. He’s been working nothing but morning shifts and he’s very depressed from it... I feel bad bc I forget that he’s been depressed too... I complement him and my brain is like nope shouldn’t of done that feeling..

@nimziewd I am scared bc I feel like I am better... 😞

@Mandy7710 I get u but it's okay, accept the feelings but don't act on them, let them stay but u don't act on them. It's difficult but will help

@nimziewd That those feelings are not the real u, even if it feels for now

@nimziewd My main fear for years now is about moving out with him... 😞 I already live with him. But when I think about it my brain is like nope you don’t love him enough...😞 my roommate told me I was like this too before I moved here with him that I was scared... I see so many people typing that they’re scared about being in denial it makes me scared...

@nimziewd I was able to Masturbate about him. But I keep testing myself if I am sexually attracted to him or asking myself if I am. I’ve been going through this for 4 weeks now

@Mandy7710 Hey just stop questioning yourself why for everything u feel. It helped me

@nimziewd I’m trying 😖 it’s hard. I say I love my gin gin (he’s a ginger) 24 hours a day everyday. I test myself that same amount...

@Mandy7710 That's compulsion

@nimziewd It’s hard to break the cycle and I am afraid if I go to therapy it’s gonna be me... 😞

@Mandy7710 Same I did too but trust me go for it

@Mandy7710 Take it slow Don't be hard on yourself That's what I am learning now

@nimziewd I am the type of person who always expects something bad to happen.. I can’t tell if it was me or not but I felt like I was okay breaking up with him when I don’t want to..

@nimziewd I just can’t take it anymore... I feel like I am better but I am still going through this crap! 😞 that means it has to be me that means I was never happy but when I think of the time we cuddle and take showers together and hug I get sad! I feel like a lier! 10 years I spent with him...I know I love him a lot. But why would I not wanna have sex with him! 😭😭 I hate that I am finding other men attractive but I’ve never been really attracted to men at all sure men are cute but not handsome to me like he is 😭😭

@Mandy7710 It's all thoughts U need to break this cycle dear