I suffer from PCOD thoughts at the moment. I’ve been ruminating and obsessing about them for days on end. I believe I’ve suffered from Ocd thoughts since I was a kid, back then it was religious type thoughts like , going to hell for being blasphemous, then my thoughts morphed Into HOCD which I thought at one point was the worse of all thoughts to obsess and fear. I’ve always been the type to hold on to negativity and thoughts. Like when I suffered from Insomnia a few months back, I was convincing myself I had some kind of terminal disease that would cause me to lose sleep forever and eventually die, my eye floaters have gotten worse the past month and I started obsessing over those thinking I was going blind. Now with these PCOD thoughts I feel like these are the motherload of negative obsessional thoughts. I’m at the point of feeling like Hanging in by a thread when is this thread gonna snap. My thoughts were recently triggered by my pregnancy. Found out I was pregnant 2 weeks ago. I feel like them theme has always made me uncomfortable and the thoughts were there before but somehow I was able to manage them because they don’t bother me or I didn’t make a big deal out of them . Now it’s like I just don’t see an escape from this hell i’m living in. I guess my question is, because I’ve been on various types of medications all my life , what medication has helped you guys out with your OCD thoughts? I suffer from inward compulsions too not the “typical” ocd compulsions. It’s hard for me to say what’s worked for me since I’ve stopped and started so much medicine. Because I’m also pregnant at the moment no psychiatrist wants to prescribe anything. Sorry for the long post guys.

Hi there. I feel your pain. I have 6 and 4 year old children and have had POCD flare ups periodically through their childhoods after suffering with this theme periodically since I was about 16. I took sertraline throughout my second pregnancy and also breastfed on it. I’m not going to lie - I don’t think any medication alone does the trick and even with having had therapy I still have bad days but I definitely think the sertraline takes the edge off. If you ever want to talk - I’m here x

I’m taking Lexapro the generic brand. I was prescribed a few months back and just started talking last night because I found a full months supply. I’ve been to 2 seperate Dr visits both psychiatrists but they both refused to prescribe anything as soon as I told them I tested positive, since that’s when my obsessive thoughts really got a hold of me when I found out I was pregnant. I told them I’ve been severely depressed and suicidal at times and they still refused to prescribe but I did have one tell my I should see an immediate Dr appt near my area to see if I can have an antipsychotic prescribes because she doubts I have OCD . She says she thinks I have some schiZo affective personality. Which is new to me. So that also stressed me because it’s added on more to my fears of denial and such. I started taking the Lexapro yesterday evening and idk of it was a placebo affect but I swear my anxiety went down drastically , I almost felt normal back to my “normal” self. Today tho I woke up with this fear. Like I feel I am jittery/shaken inside. I’ve been waking up this way everyday now for the last week or so. Also like a feeling of dread almost.

So idk I was pretty frustrated that the one Dr would not even consider and anti anxiety medication because of the pregnancy but she suggested an antipsychotic for whatever she thinks I have. Like yeah “let me taking something way stronger “ smh.

Thank you. Yes that’s where my frustration comes in. Like I understand I am Pregnant and it may affect the fetus but from what I’ve gathered the risk is small and better to be on medication to control my anxiety/depression than to walk around with severe depression and stress while pregnant. I do not feel they took any of my thoughts and concerns into consideration. Like if a patient is telling you that have been depressed to severely depressed at times and suicidal when they’ve never really been suicidal like would you think they’d be like “let’s see what we can do to help at this moment” the one dr suggest I stop by my closet mental health center and print out her diagnosis of me which was Shinzo affected and get an antipsychotic the other dr suggested therapy. Which I understand and I am getting therapy but financially it is also expensive and the free Centers don’t always deal with OCD in particular this subtype. I spent over 200 dollars for some Dr not even consider my feelings or concerns. I was pissed stilll am.

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I am. It’s a little pricey for me but I’ve decided to stick with it anyway so I can get ahold of myself and my thoughts. The health care system in the US sucks. My stress level was at 100 trying to find a Dr that specializes in ocd and when you do the sessions are super expensive or they don’t take a particular type of insurance. When you go to apply for low income care they say you make too much. It’s just running around it loops. I’ve made calls to Dr in my network that somewhat specialize in ocd since they’re cheaper not one Dr has called me back. So I found this website NOCD and figured since it’s all through video and my insurance can partially pay for it...why not.