Reckoner
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Jbm421Jbm421
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Not really. Bro, another day lost to this crap. My mind switched it all up later in the day. No long the stuff about penis but good looking dudes now. And of course it uses my loss of attraction against me. Trying to relax for the rest of the night.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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What do you mean the content changes ?
ReckonerReckoner
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today it's hetero homo, tomorrow it might be something else, like trans OCD. Therapy is necessary
Jbm421Jbm421
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@Akhil12 I hear you bro.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I feel you on that one
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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dont think i could have loved women as much as i did before all this. But its gotten so much worse
ReckonerReckoner
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it's not permanent, we all know this.but I feel it's just one life and I am wasting time lost in circles when I should be loving every minute, and also women.
ReckonerReckoner
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Thanks to pandemic, this problem is worse
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I think its worse when you have a gf and dont get much time together beause of having kids etc ...
Jbm421Jbm421
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This shit is terrible. I want my old attraction back to where even ugly girls could be sexy. Lol ...my mind is stuck on some crazy shit at the moment.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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You alrite mate ?
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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my mind is stuck on penises its like im obsessed. Fucking shoot me now
Jbm421Jbm421
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No, not really. Yeah, I have the penis shit stuck in my head. Cant function properly.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Its horrible mate isnt it. We got this tho brother 👊
Jbm421Jbm421
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Bro. I'm in hell. I cant fantasize because it interferes. I don't want to start avoiding looking at dudes as that will start to snowball.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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remember its intrusive
ReckonerReckoner
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well, I am really glad i found this. I spent quite sometime thinking I was the only one stuck with penises in my mind and was judging myself 24/7. Atleast, I know now I am not the only one. Imagine having this and stuck in pre internet era.
ReckonerReckoner
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but I fucking hate it, I mean i masturbate and it isn't that wholesome anymore..does this happen with everyone?
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I dont masturbate because of the simple fact i have this shit in my head it horrible
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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and i comment on the images aswel 😞
ReckonerReckoner
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you can watch lesbian porn
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Yeah i did that couple of weeks ago. Nothing with penises in it tho
Jbm421Jbm421
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I cant masturbate when I feel like this. Too many intrusive thoughts. And then I reassure but it comes back. Same with watching lesbian porn or solo girls. Intrusive thoughts that fuck it all up. The penis shit is a problem. A month ago I watched a porn (a chick and a dude) and I tried to watch without avoiding (watch girls get plowed is great but there's penis and I been avoiding that for a while) but it was just to face it down. It felt like a checking compulsion honestly. And since that day my mind will bring it up as proof. Its terrible.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Im exactly the same mate. My mind also tries to think of attractive guys ive seen
Jbm421Jbm421
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My mind is very narrow. So if it gets stuck on the penis shit, nothing else matters. I guess its because I can dismiss that attractive dude thing very easily sometimes.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Yeah i used to be able to mate. Difficult at the moment tho
Jbm421Jbm421
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My therapist told me this: "Hey Jason I know it is difficult but you got to just pretend the OCD bully is looking for reactions out of you and the more it gets the more power it’s going to have..."
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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That makes sense mate. I feel like ive got a weight on the back of my neck by the end of the day its so exhausting 😞
Jbm421Jbm421
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Dude, its either that or a pounding headache.
ReckonerReckoner
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try setraline if it's that bad, it will give a breathing space bro
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I swear mate are symptoms are very similar
Jbm421Jbm421
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Yup. Just got a surprise trigger. I hate those.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Do you say stuff sometimes to yourself ?
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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What was your trigger ?
Jbm421Jbm421
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I won't say it but it's like it says it in my head. The trigger was some young dude in the building I work in followed by some dudes on the street. Any other time, none of that shit would bother me...
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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What did you say ?
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Sorry mate
Jbm421Jbm421
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I said none of these surprise triggers would bother me normally.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Did you say you do say stuff in your head ?
Jbm421Jbm421
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Yeah. It's like my mind says it.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Its confusing as fuck
Jbm421Jbm421
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Now its getting difficult to look at any dude. Last time I had this specific type of the thought, it lasted like a week.
proton13proton13
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I go through the same shit as you, can you pls type me to proton13@azet.sk, I would like to be more in touch with someone facing same isuue.thanks
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Its like my brain latches on to certain good looking guys each day
Jbm421Jbm421
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My mind is really trying to panic me with all these intrusive thoughts.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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We got this mate. You wont take medication will you ?
Jbm421Jbm421
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Nope. Not doing meds.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Fair enough mate
Jbm421Jbm421
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I'm exhausted.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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My intrusive thoughts are mental
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Do you get groinals in your butt throughout the day ?
ReckonerReckoner
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it happened to me bro for a week. As I said above, once you get HOCD, the content changes
Jbm421Jbm421
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@Akhil12 I feel you. The content of the hocd changes, right?
ReckonerReckoner
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masturbated today after long( sex videos) felt good AF, HOCD didn't kick in. I did after a long while, I think my horniness overcame hocd lol
Jbm421Jbm421
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Mornings are terrible. My mind gets so sensitive. This is when I start doubting OCD.
Jbm421Jbm421
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...and I still gotta deal with loss of attraction on top of all the thoughts.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Im getting that really bad. This is really making me think i like dicks. Fucking kill me
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Help mate 😞
Jbm421Jbm421
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Dude, I'm stuck in bed with my mind really trying to convince me every time I start falling back asleep. All I can tell you is get up and do something different than what you're doing now. And try to accept the thoughts but don't engage them.
Jbm421Jbm421
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My therapist gave me a cheat sheet that she tells me to follow every time it gets bad. It says this: -Dont engage the thoughts -Dont engage them in any way -Do not answer any question the thought poses -Do not push the thoughts out of your mind -Do not go online looking for answers -Do not figure out what the thoughts mean -Do not try to determine if the thought is true or false -Do not analyze why the thought is popping up -Do not offer reassurance in one way or the other Hope this helps...
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Cheers mate. Sorry i know your struggling
Jbm421Jbm421
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It's not easy to follow the cheat sheet. But I try.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I swear i feel like im ready to come out. But something just doesnt feel right about it ?
Jbm421Jbm421
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Try not to analyze.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I keep breaking down
Jbm421Jbm421
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It's very easy to breakdown like that. My therapist had me do some exposures today. She had me make a letter of me coming out. Shit was rough. She said if I watch porn or look up nudes, just try to not push the intrusive thoughts out of my head. The girls got me excited so that's a plus. My anxiety is really up now though.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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That is tough. Thing is if i look at images of guys they stay with me for most of the day and i comment like so sexy 😞
Jbm421Jbm421
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Try to mock or make fun of things like that. Like if you get the image of a penis stuck in your head say "just what I always wanted" or "yup absolutely" or something along those lines. It helps bro.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Do you get a similar thing ?. Thanks for your help ive got a pounding headache today
Jbm421Jbm421
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Try not to ask for reassurance. I made a mistake watching porn. Now the loss of attraction is worse. I'll try to have a good day though.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Dont know why i comment
Jbm421Jbm421
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You're seeking relief. I understand. But you won't get it on here.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Yeah i know mate
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