Sadman
- Date posted
- 4y
RunaroundRubyRunaroundRuby
- Date posted
- 4y
I have very similar feelings sometimes and it makes me feel awful. I haven't said this thought out loud to anyone but I met my boyfriends sister for the first time and she has a lovely girl who's 2/3. At one point my bf and his sister had to go to the car to sort something and I was left with her. My thoughts straight away were "what are you doing? You can't trust me with her! I'll touch her". Even wrighting these words out I feel awwwwful. Absolutely awful. This is not how I feel at all and I would never ever do it but I also felt like I'd done something incredibly wrong...
JojoJojo
- Date posted
- 4y
So sorry you are going through this. It’s horrible to feel this way and have these thoughts and question your existence and character.
JojoJojo
- Date posted
- 4y
Apparently many people who do not have OCD thoughts or are non pedophiles experience those thoughts and urges but they shake em off because they know they couldn’t or wouldn’t do it and move on. We fixate and try to find meaning in the thought and urges and ourselves.
Warrior44Warrior44
- Date posted
- 4y
Yes yes yes I experience this. We have to remember those thoughts are not us. Its the OCD.
JojoJojo
- Date posted
- 4y
I feel like I have always felt this way Like can’t watch a baby’s diaper being changed. Have made sure that when I babysit the kid(s) are potty trained and can wipe themselves. I have had friends who I doubt have OCD like my best friend when we worked in preschool childcare, who also once made a comment like “ I don’t want to be alone in the bathroom with any of these kids because I don’t want anyone to say I did something” so people do have those thoughts and are normal I suppose it’s just we latch on to these things and ruminate and questions the thoughts or urges when they come up. We don’t just move along. This is my take on that.
RunaroundRubyRunaroundRuby
- Date posted
- 4y
That's put things into a really fresh perspective for me, and I'm going to try and remember that next time something like that happens x
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