Sadman
- Date posted
- 5y
RunaroundRubyRunaroundRuby
- Date posted
- 5y
I have very similar feelings sometimes and it makes me feel awful. I haven't said this thought out loud to anyone but I met my boyfriends sister for the first time and she has a lovely girl who's 2/3. At one point my bf and his sister had to go to the car to sort something and I was left with her. My thoughts straight away were "what are you doing? You can't trust me with her! I'll touch her". Even wrighting these words out I feel awwwwful. Absolutely awful. This is not how I feel at all and I would never ever do it but I also felt like I'd done something incredibly wrong...
JojoJojo
- Date posted
- 5y
So sorry you are going through this. It’s horrible to feel this way and have these thoughts and question your existence and character.
JojoJojo
- Date posted
- 5y
Apparently many people who do not have OCD thoughts or are non pedophiles experience those thoughts and urges but they shake em off because they know they couldn’t or wouldn’t do it and move on. We fixate and try to find meaning in the thought and urges and ourselves.
Warrior44Warrior44
- Date posted
- 5y
Yes yes yes I experience this. We have to remember those thoughts are not us. Its the OCD.
JojoJojo
- Date posted
- 5y
I feel like I have always felt this way Like can’t watch a baby’s diaper being changed. Have made sure that when I babysit the kid(s) are potty trained and can wipe themselves. I have had friends who I doubt have OCD like my best friend when we worked in preschool childcare, who also once made a comment like “ I don’t want to be alone in the bathroom with any of these kids because I don’t want anyone to say I did something” so people do have those thoughts and are normal I suppose it’s just we latch on to these things and ruminate and questions the thoughts or urges when they come up. We don’t just move along. This is my take on that.
RunaroundRubyRunaroundRuby
- Date posted
- 5y
That's put things into a really fresh perspective for me, and I'm going to try and remember that next time something like that happens x
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Shaodidi
- Date posted
- 25w
I’m overwhelmed, I can’t stand it.
I keep getting thoughts of this 6 year old kid n I don’t know what to do, they keep coming and they give me a sense of attraction, I don’t wanna be attracted to kids, it feels too real as well, I feel a need to check if I was attracted or not constantly, and it genuinely feels like attraction, please help me I don’t wanna be a pedo. Whenever I try to think abt something romantic or about someone my age I’m actually into, that kid keeps popping up.
Anony1314
- Date posted
- 21w
Please comment. I'm struggling so much. Thanks
POCD I was holding my nephew, he's a newborn, and he was getting hungry so he started squirming around and grazed my chest (yes I was fully clothed). Of course, that caused anxious groinals.. It didn't feel bad in the moment just very very anxious feelings, and without thinking, I was holding his head still right there and I was moving it closer in that spot (at least felt that way) to make the feeling continue I guess. It felt like an urge because of the groinals. It was such an anxious all over my body feeling. I was so anxious and triggered by that feeling. It's like my groinals were so intense I automatically leaned into them? So I ended up having another groinal. After that I put the baby down and realized what had happened. Did I just hurt my nephew without consciously realizing it till after? Is this OCD?
Anony1314
- Date posted
- 21w
Could you guys just tell me if that's what it is
Wait. Is this a compulsion? Like I didn't realize compulsions can be something like this? Not looking for reassurance but just wondering if that sounds accurate? Thanks guys! I know I'll never get the certainty I want, but I want to feel safe to be around my nephew again. I was holding my nephew, he's a newborn, and he was getting hungry so he started squirming around and grazed my chest (yes I was fully clothed). Of course, that caused very intense groinals.. It didn't feel bad in the moment but just anxious, and without thinking, I was holding his head still right there and I was moving it closer in that spot (at least felt that way) to make the feeling continue I guess. It was such an anxious all over my body feeling. I was so anxious and triggered by that feeling. It's like my groinals were so intense I automatically leaned into them without thinking a second thought? So I ended up having another groinal. After that I put the baby down and realized what had happened then panicked so much.
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