This really fucking sucks rn I feel like I’m a lesbian and I want it When I truly don’t want these thoughts or to be with a girl. I don’t want to want girls either. I want guys. I want butterflies and those romantic, giddy feelings for guys not girls. I want to fall in love with a guy. I want to want guys and not have my fucking mind telling me they’re gross. I’m so jealous of girls that are so attracted to guys and have bfs cause I want that I hate this so much :( I don’t know how to get better I’m even uncomfortable at the thought of being sexual with manly guys now as well :( (Do any of y’all any experience that?)

I feel like I want to be lesbian. I want to cry. I gave into compulsions and I went on lesbian TikTok. It feels like something I want to try and do and that I’d be happier. Why is it so real. I don’t want to be lesbian but I feel like I’m pushing down the truth. How do I stop giving into these compulsions and feel better, I can’t do this anymore. I don’t even remember being straight or liking men. I hate this.

A while ago, maybe a month and a half, I started getting thoughts that I am gay and in denial. I have no desire to be with a man and NEVER have, but it feels like I am a liar and I am really gay. It is hard to get out of my head, and I just want to say to anyone struggling with this, you are not alone. I have a hard time feeling like my attraction to women is genuine nowadays and I say to myself “What if I end up dating a guy?” And I get non stop thoughts and a groinal response as well. I also have gender dysphoria on top of that so it’s hard to imagine myself with a woman even though in the past I wanted it, but now I feel like I don’t, and eventually I’m gonna just date a guy. I get these compulsions to try things out with a guy and see if I like it but I don’t think I will act on it. I have had no hope and feel like I am genuinely gay now. I hope that I can recover.

Hey, Ive been dealing with rocd for 4 months now and im feeling like its getting slowly better. However, i think because rocd is letting go, so-ocd decided to step up. For the record, im homoromantic and bisexual, in a lesbian relationship. My first so-ocd-like thought was what if i should be with a man instead of a woman, because lately i feel more aroused by male genitals. It caused me a lot of anxiety because i never had this kind of thought in my life. Ive never really been attracted to men in real life. Ive never had sex with one and i never saw myself marrying a man. But i keep getting thoughts that i want to be with them and i want to spend the rest of my life with a man but i know thats not what i truly want and ofc i dont want those thoughts to be true because i know i love my gf and i want to marry her. The worst part is that i started to check my attraction towords men and imagining being in a realtionship with them and it makes me disgusted a little with myself. I also think that my thoughts about men are more related to rocd rather than to so-ocd, because i feel like my brain is constantly trying to convince me to leave my gf. No matter what reason and its just coming up with new ones every two weeks. Do any of you guys know what can i do to get rid of this problem? Please help i cant live like this.