Is it normal for HOCD to feel just like denial of my true sexuality? I have been struggling for a couple of months but it all feels so real that I doubt I even have HOCD, even though I’ve struggled with OCD symptoms and anxiety since I was young. I have obsessed that I’ve had STD’s, obsessed that I’ve had cancer or other ailments, obsessed over my nose being slightly crooked, when I was in grade school there was a period where I couldn’t speak without gagging which was all caused by anxiety. Now I’m seemingly dealing with HOCD but it feels so real. I get attraction feelings in my body when seeing another male or an attractive male, groinal responses, butterflies. All of this despite only ever having crushes on girls and women, and being extremely attracted to women my whole life. My earliest crush that I can remember was on another girl in kindergarten so I must’ve been 4 or 5. I have been borderline obsessed with women and would have described myself as totally straight before the onset of this. I’m worried that if I’m not gay, that the HOCD will make me develop an attraction to men by thinking and over analyzing so much Someone please share their thoughts

I feel everything you feel! My ocd tells me the same thing but with that comes so much distress and sadness. like my life is over, that gives me an immediate start up to my brain. That what the hell, pay attention like crazy on any of your body part you'll feel it move.

25 in April. It’s not attraction in the way I feel for women. It’s like nervous attraction, like I’m anticipating it and hoping I feel nothing, it’s when I’m checking for attraction that I feel something.

The attraction I feel for women makes me feel happy, and it’s like I’m being drawn to them and I love it. This HOCD attraction feels like I’m being forced to feel things that I don’t want.

I’ve never had any attractions to the same sex before the onset of this specific theme. It’s been happening for about 4 months. Before this I was dealing with constant panic attacks and agoraphobia, then it switched to this

If you are having anxiety about a feeling then it is surely OCD. If you were what you feared there would be no fear of it. The physical responses your body is having is also your OCD. Look up about physical responses to your type of OCD and you should find the info that will be helpful. I am not a doctor but I have been in therapy. You will be fine.

Hey I have HOCD too, I get what you mean. My attractions to men make me so happy and then HOCD comes in and the false ones are awful and very triggering. Not trying to be rude to other commenters but pls don’t listen to what they’re saying bc I know and totally get what you’re going through. ( I’m almost fully recovered and can enjoy my boyfriend again for the most part ) the anxious butterflies and everything are difficult and remember that in the body anxiety and attraction can feel similar ! It’s just your ocd though. The more you just sit with the sensations and only see them as sensations you can see it’s just anxiety & ocd manipulating you. ❤️

It could totally also be normal attraction just stay calm u are going to figure it out in the future I also blamed my attraction to people who aren't men on my OCD for a while until I fell in love in a genderfluid person (when I met them they were read as female) turns out I am propably pansexual (similar sexuality to bi) , but could I ask u if u are under 25 ?

I’m 24

Hm difficult it could also be that you are nervous because you are worring about your HOCD making you feel attracted. Since when did u feel the attraction.

but of cause it could also really be your OCD .

Maybe you could try to loose your fear of it being your OCD and look how it feels like then.

I know thats hard but maybe worth a try