Let’s talk about POCD and break the stigma, comment below your worst intrusive thoughts on POCD, images, Or even urges, no judgement here.

Same, I often feel like bad or numb

Mine does too. It makes me feel like I really do secretly like the thoughts and that I like kids. When I know deep down it’s against what I stand for. I love kids but not in that why. It’s like why can’t my brain just let me enjoy life and think normally you know?..

@🐝 I do checking myself, but the Groinal sensations just sort of happen, when I’m thinking about getting an intrusive thought or when I see an image of a child online: that really distresses me when that happens. My minds like, well if your getting Groinal movement you must be turned on and like it! I used to feel uncomfertable around kids and when they’d get to close to me. I can relate to you there. But I do still see my cousins and family: I would never hurt them in any way coz I’ve been sexually abused and I know what it does to you. I still try to spend time with them. Try not to let it beat you, if you can, sit with the thoughts and see them, if it causes you too much distress, don’t do that, find support. This app is always here

@🐝 I’m the same. No matter how much research or how many people I speak to. My mind always has an argument back. “You get these sensations becuase your a pedophile and you enjoy that image” “you don’t have OCD. Stop using it as an excuse and just accept the fact your a pedophile.” those are the types of things my mind says to me. Thank you for that I didn’t think of it that way.

@🐝 Since the start of this year, a few months after I came out about non recent sexual abuse.

@anonynon Me too been feeling neutral all day The other day I was numb like no emotions the. The day after depressed today I’m mostly okay. Makes me wonder wtf my brain is doing.

@Jojo I feel numb today. Like my heart is not there I don’t even feel it beating like I usually do. My head is so fucked so much going on in my head I feel so overwhelmed.

I fucking hate it too.

I can’t stand it. It’s the worst type of theme I believe. Makes you feel like a monster and evil like you don’t deserve any type of happiness. When you could be the most nicest person in the world. It’s so unfair

@Blackberry I hate it so much. I like someone at school but I don't want to pursue them because I fel like a monster. I'm just better off alone I just wished I was normal.

@snake89 I think this is an awful mental illness. You still deserve to be happy ❤️

I feel you today I saw someone SS the video of the 14 or 15 yrld and his niece I felt sick to the stomach and sad my mind tells to find it enjoying and what not OCD is a monster I hate it

@anonynon That’s awful I’m sorry you experienced that. I’ve come across videos online by accident before, where I’ve seen a video where the lady looks really young, too young. And my mind goes “I think you enjoyed that” or “you stayed on the video for too long that means you liked it” your right this sort of theme is absolute torture.

Same I feel extremely uncomfortable sometimes but it’s best to sit with those feeling it doesn’t define you, but man other times OCD really does kick my ass and those thoughts feel real.

I get you, and I think Anonynon is right, I’ve found sitting with the thoughts have helped me. Rather than thinking “ew that’s disgusting why am I thinking such things?!” I let them come and go like any other intrusive thought. Try to stay away from doing compulsions. I know it’s easier said than done though.

Thanks for sharing. That sounds very distressing. I understand. I’ve had intrusive thoughts since the start of this year and it’s been torture becuase it’s not what I like and I feel so hopeless sometimes. My mind tries to convince me I actually enjoy it. And that I haven’t got OCD, I’m just using it as an excuse kind of thing. It’s awful. Stay strong, I understand you, we’re all in this together, don’t be so harsh on yourself and let the thoughts come and go

@🐝 Yes I wish I could go back to all my other ocd thoughts

Oh my, im so sorry :(

I’m sorry that sounds awful. I think OCD likes to attach itself to what you care about the most. It’s a cruel illness. I’ve had thoughts like that when I’ve been around a younger family member. It’s horrible.

Thanks for sharing I know it’s not easy. I thought I had a crush on one kid too. It makes me feel ill because I know deep down I’m not into children in that way. I suffer from Groinal sensations more than anything now. I feel you. Your not in your own here

@Blackberry It feels better talking about it. I have mix feelings about it. It makes me sad that other people are suffering but happy that I'm not alone. It's just an I'll feeling to have.

@snake89 It does feel so much better talking. And I wish it was more widely discussed so we didn’t feel so alone. I feel like most people just wouldn’t understand. I’ve told a lot of people in my life and I’ve been very lucky. They’ve been supportive. It is horrible. And I wish I could take it away from you me and everybody that experiences it. All’s I can say is, If you can, and your safe to, try to get help from your doctor if you haven’t already. Find some support, since I have been getting support I do deal with it a lot better. I might be doing CBT therapy soon and that’s meant to be good for this type of thing. Hang in there, we’re always here to talk.

@Blackberry A part of me feels bad for wanting people to discuss it but another part of me wants people to talk about it. There other people suffering the same thing and I wish people would tall more about taboo stuff.

@Blackberry Maybe I'm selfish for thinking that.

@snake89 No of course your not selfish. The truth is it isn’t spoken about. And it should be just as spoken about as depression. Not many people are ready to speak about it though out of fear or being misjudged which can happen. But the more people talk about it, the more it can get researched and the more people will feel comfortable enough to come forward

@Blackberry I see your point maybe one day it'll happen.

@snake89 I do hope it does. So many are suffering so badly in silence. Why should we have to suffer just becuase this may be difficult to comprehend for other people? We shouldn’t. I hope this gets spoken about more often and widely in the future.

@Blackberry In all honesty I want to make a comic about POCD (Of course I won't draw sexual drawings of kids cause that's wrong and I don't condone that) But I know it'll start a controversy. There other ways it can be spoken about though. I just hope one day it does.

@snake89 That’s a great idea! Do it if you want to! I’d love to write a book about it. But I’m too afraid of the judgement I may get from it. I wish people were more open minded.

@Blackberry I'm scared of the controversy so I'll make a new art style just for that specific style. The whole book idea sounds good though. Maybe you should write it anonymously or something alike.

@🐝 Which is why I wished people would talk about it more instead of it being a taboo subject.

@🐝 It’s so sad, so do you think people could possibly paint us with the same brush as pedophiiles then? Coz I’ve told people who don’t deserve to know. My ex who I recently cut off from. I worry he’s going to tell people and coz I live in a smallish town everyone will know. It just worries me what people who’ve never heard of it may think.

Great! There’s only me in there so far though, just search in the group search bit on kik, “POCD” or “POCD support group” and it should come up :) I’m hoping many people will join

I would be totally up for maybe but maybe not kik what about reddit?

A support group would be amazing

I just found out, I don't think you can get groupchats on reddit so I'll try kik.

@snake89 Okay everyone’s welcome. Search either “POCD” or “ POCD support chat” on kik