I recently developed transgender ocd. I’m going to cut down in physical compulsions as much as possible! I need to learn to accept uncertainty!!!

Yes it is. It means its severe.

I was gonna reassure you but I caught myself. You ok bro, you're like me. You're stuck in a loop and you will break it.

Yeah, and you don't want it to. Best not to wish you had other themes.

Because they are not as severe or not you're primary theme. If they were to get severe, you'd fear that shit worse than this.

Last of us 2 the game?

Good game. I just got a platinum of Ghost Of Tsushima

Asking why will keep it going. Try not to analyze. I'm in the the same boat. It started at 27 for me and now I'm 38. It was bad at first, then I improved for a few years then it got bad again, then I got it under control but it came back again. The really bad episodes last for months but hopefully this one doesn't last as long.

Oh yeah. I get the cloudiness on my bad days. Those are the days when you need family, compassion, watching something positive and non triggering can help (I watch some Looney Tunes lol), good food and plenty of rest.

No, finding a dude good looking doesn't make you gay. Thats very common. Don't read into everything. Just let it be. What happens when we dwell on a thought or an urge or a groinal or a situation from the past that we reinterpret to be proof is that it high Jack's our minds and then it uses up all of our energy and time and then the next day or a few days later, we're on to a new hocd thought that takes up our mind and energy and the old ones don't matter. It's a cycle bro. And it fucking sucks.

Yup. That's what OCD does. It's trying to protect you by trying to bring up that could be a threat and when you react with fear, it keeps bringing up more and more fearful thoughts.

Shit, right now this crap doubling down on the loss of attraction but all the other fears are smaller by comparison. I figure, I should leave it alone but it still really kills me...

Don't push too hard with the females bro. It will only feel worse. That's why it happens to me. I would nothing more than to dream about the ladies but I'm pushing too hard. I'm backing way the fuck off for now. At the same time, we gotta not try to fall in love with every woman we see and then feeling like shit when it backfires (I'm definitely guilty of this).

How is your sleeping???

I know how bad that can be. Try not to analyze or reassure yourself.

It will get better. But yeah, I have my days when I'm stuck in bed. It's a habit I have from broken sleep. But yeah laying in bed will make it worse. Try not to.

Making you think you like the thoughts is one of OCDs dirty tricks. My mind says all kinds of stupid shit...

Your best bet is to try not to control your thoughts. I know sometimes the thoughts are unbearable but trying to control the thoughts will only make it worse. Also, trying to do everything that OCD wants you to do gives it power. If OCD makes you not want to look in the mirror, then look in the mirror (by the way, I went through that exact same thing)...

Like right now, I'm calm but OCD is trying to bring up loss of attraction. I'm trying to ignore.

You're analyzing. It takes up too much of your time. Accept your thoughts and then do something else. Call a friend or family and talk about something other than OCD. If you get to play your game again, put earphones on to immerse yourself in the game (or do what I do while I play, put one earphone in your ear from your phone to listen to music or a YouTube video that entertaining or funny). The more you at least occupy yourself while you feel like this then the less you will ruminate.

I want that shit too bro.

Well my therapist tells me if I get the thoughts regarding the penis shit, try to use that as exposure and not react to them. Also, she says if I feel the need to watch porn, then do not avoid looking at the screen if a penis is on screen but don't go searching it out as that is a checking compulsion and it can make it worse. Right now I'm just not gonna touch porn because it's not healthy for me right now. Try accepting the thoughts and saying "great thank you". Kind of mock the thoughts. It will still fuck with you but little by little it will lose power.

My therapist had me looking at picks of dudes while making fun or mocking them for like 3 minutes.

Also, dont avoid looking at anyone (guy or girl) in person. I still fail at this a little bit.

That's trying too hard. Don't try too hard. Giving yourself a break is very important.

@Ihateocd83 Hey how you doing? It’s been along time since this convo but I was seeing how your ocd journey is doing