OH MY GOD SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME i just had a compulsion to go look at pictures of girls kissing and so i did. i got anxious and now i’m crying and whenever i was looking at those pictures i felt this warmth down there and i think my clit was throbbing and now i’m scared to tell my boyfriend and cry to him and tell him what i did oh my god why did i do that. has that response happened to any other person on here!?! like this warmth down there????

i used to not have this anxiety at all when i used to look at stuff like this. and sometimes it’s like a throb down there when i see stuff and i’m annoyed by it but when i see multiple pictures it makes me overwhelmed. i don’t think if i was bi or lesbian i would have reacted in that way. right?? i know you aren’t supposed to give reassurance but i just love my boyfriend. and the whole arousal thing is throwing me off i used to and can get off to lesbian fantasies and things but i was addicted to lesbian porn i know that has a role to play in that. but i don’t like want to and don’t masturbate to those thoughts every day or at all. i didn’t get disgusted by it just really upset since you’re bi you probably feel the same way when looking at that stuff (the warmth or whatever) but it’s not guilt i’m feeling it’s being upset.

@holley Well in my case, he’s my first ever boyfriend. I’ve never been in a relationship before and when I kinda came to terms with my bisexuality, that’s when I started dating him so I never experienced being with a girl. So I always overthought my relationship. I knew I liked girls and I just continued to watch lesbian porn and didn’t really freak out because I knew he watched it too. (Sorry it this is tmi lmao) We have always been verbal. We always talked about how we felt. Communication plays a huge role. There were nights where I would cry myself to sleep because of my guilt and how much I love him. I didn’t know what to do, but I had to overcome whatever I was going through, thoughts and all.

@bubbless i’m also religious and i don’t believe you can love two things at once if that makes sense. i love everyone for who they are so don’t feel like i’m downing you for your sexuality !! but i am very supportive of the lgbtq+ community. to me being bi would definitely mean i don’t love my boyfriend. i don’t engage sexually with these thoughts i have at all. it’s this arousal stuff that’s dragging me down. if someone could just be like that was a groinal response and nothing else i would be okay but i can get off to lesbian fantasies...... so how the hell does. that make any. sense. i’m so confused 😭😭

@holley Well, if you’re bi it doesn’t really mean you don’t love your bf, or you being selfish. Being bi is just liking both genders simultaneously, but liking people one at a time, depending if you fell in love then you don’t care about anyone else. If you go off to lesbian fantasies then you go off to lesbian fantasies. I’m not sure if this has been going on before you struggling with OCD, but if it was something that you’ve always been into then accepting it should be the first step.

@bubbless i never fantasized before ocd maybe once or twice i would always watch porn but i stopped. i never fantasized about being with women before romantically or sexually but now that i don’t watch porn it’s hard to focus or think about sex with my bf with all these intrusive thoughts. if i try to accept that i’ll try to accept i want to marry a girl. it just won’t work. and i just don’t believe you can like both genders at the same time but like i said i respect you as a person. a lot of straight girls get disgusted at the thought of doing things with a girl i don’t tho. like at all. i’m scared that like if i had sex with a girl that i would cum more easy but i have came with my bf before, my body is sooooo used to cumming to lesbian porn it’s just like wtf???

@holley Well if it was something you only thought about once or twice before your OCD then I don’t think you have anything to worry about. You cumming to videos could be a compulsion.

Yes it is, I get it all the time with my POCD. It’s a false reaction

it’s so scary😭