Hello, I apologise in advance if this post is convoluted. I feel like I’m going nowhere. A little background: I’ve always been an “obsessive” person, needing things to be a certain way and at times getting very distressed over seemingly nothing. In my early 20s (I’m now 28), I read about OCD and couldn’t believe how much it resonated with me. I told myself it wasn’t that big of a deal and that I was exaggerating the impact of it in my life. I ignored my mental challenges and tried to live life without any help. Cue to 25 and due to certain life experiences, I was struggling to get through each day. I would wake up angry and disappointed that I wasn’t graced with dying in my sleep. Living was painful. I started seeking help for my mental health. I had a few different psychologists over the years who all acknowledged that yes, it sounds like I have OCD but that was always the end of the conversation. I didn’t find any of them helpful as I felt we were constantly addressing small, day-to-day experiences and not tackling my major core issues. Due to full time work I never saw any one psychologist for long. I haven’t seen a psychologist for years until recently. I was having long periods of deep depression due to whatever thing I was obsessing over. I also struggle with disordered eating so I initially was seeking someone who specialised in that area. I’ve only had 3 sessions so far and we speak about OCD but... I get the the feeling that her advice is possibly not something that would be helpful to me in the grand scheme of things? Last session I asked her what her advice would be when I catch myself ruminating. She said I should either: a) Speak kindly to myself, as if the thoughts were being expressed to me by a friend/someone I care about b) Distract myself with something productive/that I enjoy c) Challenge the idea that I am bad/everyone hates me and reach out to a loved one for a lighthearted conversation I can’t help but feel like these “solutions” don’t seem that productive long term? I am just getting so worried that I am wasting my money (I am unemployed and these sessions are costing me $110 each) but I can’t seem to find anyone remotely near me who specialises in OCD. Am I able to access therapy via this app when I live in Australia? I’m so confused and lost, sometimes I am so sure I have OCD and other times I talk myself into believing I’m exaggerating and it’s just regular anxiety or something. Due to my compulsions being mental (I analyse whatever distressing memory/thought occurs and seek assurance online sometimes to the point where I am getting no sleep). Again I apologise for this potentially confusing and longwinded post... I am just not really sure if the help I am getting is actually truely helpful for my (possible) condition and where to go from here.