Another thing about hocd thats weird.... (no one take this in a homophobic sense....it’s not meant to be like that at i dont see the issue or even the big deal with two girls dating ecshother or two giys) even when i see two girls together i always see friends / sisters. Ive always saw girls as that and have always been the type too put myself in other people’s shoes. If i ever hugged a girl it felt like a sisterly/friend way. Well what if towards all these girls i felt that way too (so all my friends) i actually liked them? But i never wanted to kiss them from what i could remember :( I was born the only girl in an all guy family so i always wanted a sister, so any girl i saw was my sister And i always had crushes on guys as a kid, made my barbie dolls guys so they could fall in love, chased around boys, told one boy at five years old that i was gonna marry him Every gay person had signs in their childhood with liking the same sex but i legitimately had all the normal childhood things like i sister zoned girls and chased boys around. I knew what gay was by the time i was six or seven and didnt care. Literally didnt hate on those people or even think twice about it. I didnt care. It just makes me so sad and confused:(