AndyW
- Date posted
- 6y
garden garden
- Date posted
- 6y
I had existential OCD. And it sucked. Weirdly though, it’s the only theme that I got over without replacing with a new theme (which is usually what I do). I thought life was all a big simulation and nothing was real. But one day I was talking to my brother about it and he was like ‘I don’t care if my life is a simulation, I love my life and I just wanna have fun’. Sounds so shallow and ignorant but it helped me change my perspective a bit!
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 6y
i have , it is what took place of my HOCD when it wasn’t strong anymore but went away due to my HOCD coming back. but it was brutal i kind of wanted my HOCD to come back when it replaced it cause of how much it affected me
xohelgawontwinxohelgawontwin
- Date posted
- 6y
@ramona, I COMPLETELY get it... makes me look at humans and think “wow we’re just weird animals” and i look at nature and how society works and it just didn’t seem to make sense
xohelgawontwinxohelgawontwin
- Date posted
- 6y
@ramona same!! And extinetial ocd is so scary. It’s not even describable. Does it make you or anyone else feel like humans and humanity just don’t make sense as the world feels like an illusion in a way and everything feels pointless? Cause same
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 6y
yup. it makes me like just question everything from how this world started to where we go after we die and makes scary questions like the meaning of life come into my head. it’s all so hard to deal with it really had me freaked .
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 6y
like the world and life just didn’t make any sense it was so strange
AndyWAndyW
- Date posted
- 6y
Thank you. Yes I’ve only just realise I have it, but am getting therapy next week but I feel 70% better just having found out what it is. I think the scariest thing with ocd is when you have the thoughts but can’t figure out what it is and don’t attribute it to ocd. So feeling much better now. I also get comfort thinking some questions aren’t for one person alone and the network of humanity is already processing it so I can delegate those away from me and leave them to the university’s and experts! That actually gave me some comfort also!
garden garden
- Date posted
- 6y
That’s very true! I’m glad you’re feeling a bit better. It won’t last forever :))
garden garden
- Date posted
- 6y
I mean the OCD won’t last forever not the happiness omg^^^^
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