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I am so sorry to hear about the relationship. And there’s absolutely nothing wrong with you. That was a big part of your life and it’s human to miss someone that was there all the time. But I feel like you are also very aware that it wasn’t a good relationship and that you were strong enough to leave it. You should be proud of yourself and remember feelings fluctuate and happiness depends on you. It’s okay to not feel happy just yet... don’t force it because it will come to you! You got this and you are so so strong
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- 4y ago
He used to make fun of my ocd and kicked me at my lowest . I need to remember this . I helped him get sober but at the end he got frustrated at my ocd and would give me a hard time . I need to remember these things
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- 4y ago
Relationships are complex and copdendency affects so many people. You’re not in any way outside the norm to be experiencing it. The question is, what do you do with it now? As you’re aware, the relationship was toxic. But there’s also a lot of powerful emotions of connection and bonding you developed in that time. Self-compassion is useful here. Imagine yourself talking to a good friend going through what you’ve experienced. How would you talk to them? Would you judge them? Would you extend to them the courtesy of understanding? Can you give that to yourself? Second, you’re having thoughts and urges to check his social media. Again, the appearance of these things you aren’t responsible. You’re the culmination of environmental and genetic factors beyond your conscious will to decide. That being said, you can develop the artful skill at looking at them for what they are: fleeting phenomena in the overwhelming sea of thoughts you have in a given day. We often urge others to be kind to those around them, yet frequently don’t urge kindness towards ourselves.
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There is a part of me that thinks the relationship is toxic but there is another part that feels so much guilt . He made me feel guilt for ending it . I told him that I needed to recover due to my ocd and that I could not deal with his controlling ways . He showed no empathy . Instead, he accused me seeing another guy . He is selfish
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- 4y ago
FYI . Please forgive my grammar . I am texting and working simultaneously
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- 4y ago
@Anonymous No worries! Yes, it’s okay to feel all those emotions at once. Where you’re getting tripped up is this notion that you “shouldn’t” feel them. You, of course, just feel them. Should or shouldn’t isn’t part of the equation.
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@NOCD Advocate - Carl Cornett I just hope that I really did the right thing by ending the relationship. He was a recovered alcoholic who still was a dry drunk . Even though he was sober, he was so selfish and manipulating . Whenever I asked him an ocd question, there were times he would say “ what’s in it for me ?” Wow . I helped him get sober and this is what I get when I really needed him . Towards the end , his paranoia and lack of empathy was out of control
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- 4y ago
@Anonymous You already know it was the right thing to do. Now you’ve just got to accept that you’re going to feel a lot of emotions while you process it.
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FYI we were in a codependent relationship for three years . It’s been 7 weeks since I broke it off. He told me I would regret it , since “ he was so good to me “
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- 8w ago
Hey everyone, First time posting here! Wanted to share my story for some support but also to hopefully make others feel less alone. In short - my ROCD has made such a mess of my personal life. I was in a great relationship until spring of last year, at which point we separated mainly due to my ROCD. I struggled heavily with OCD about 10 years ago (harm based intrusive thoughts, sexual orientation ocd, etc). It took a lot of work but I was able to mostly overcome my struggles and truthfully, hadn’t given ocd much thought since then. I thought I was cured. And then 10 years later I am in a very fulfilling relationship with a girl I really love, but at about the year mark in my relationship things really changed. She wanted to have a conversation about next steps (moving in, marriage, kids, etc) and at that point my brain just went into panic mode and the ocd took over. From that point on, I was constantly scanning for red flags, felt very reserved when it came to any sort of statement or commitment and tended to avoid anything that would indicate I was committed to a long term future. It was not that I didn’t love it was just that my ocd was doing anything to keep me from making a big commitment. It eventually got a point where we had a big conversation about breaking up or staying together and my OCD convinced me that it was safer and that I would do less harm to her if we ended things, which was incredibly devastating to me. At the time I felt like my obsessing over small red flags were normal and that I needed to protect myself. I just had no clue it was ROCD. I spent the next 8 months missing her and kicking myself for my mistakes, and I eventually got the courage to reach out and see if she’d be willing to talk again, which she was. But the problem is, at this point I still didn’t know it was ocd. So when we talked again I was still plagued by ROCD as all the same thoughts and feelings came flooding back. We tried to talk through things but once again I was unable to make any sort of commitment to the future so it went nowhere. Once again, I am feeling very sad and angry at myself for not being able to handle ROCD. I feel like I let it control me twice and has robbed me of a lot of happiness and hurt someone I care very much about. I understand it’s probably not best to just look at ourselves with anger and guilt all the time but it’s hard not to when you feel like you just caused so much harm. Anyone feel like they can relate? Or if anyone is going through something similar I am happy to chat as ROCD can really be tricky. Thanks
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- 7w ago
My psychologist tells me because my thoughts are based off of facts/ broken boundaries which is why I am having thoughts of am i in love , am I settling , and feeling guilty I should let him go to find someone who wouldn’t doubt him that I do not have rocd. She states rocd is intrusive , irrational thoughts not based off of real facts and I may have ptsd not ocd. He kissed someone else before we were official and he finds a certain type of female attractive that I find disgusting . So I spin about these issues all day long to the point I’m so unhappy with him and had to break up . It’s been over a month now but I’m still severely anxious and depressed The thing is I can’t stop thinking about this 24/7 with severe anxiety and depression and nothing is helping me . Can someone please tell me their thoughts
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- 6w ago
So i had really bad pure ocd but recently it’s been sooo much better but i’m in a relationship and me and my bf dated before about 2 years ago then we broke up and now we are back together but i’m having an issue where i will try to go back years and find something i did wrong and i really do not want to find anything to feel wrong about or guilty specifically something i may have done wrong to my boyfriend but the thing is i’m a good girlfriend and i’m very loyal so i don’t want to ruin something for me because of my past if that makes sense like i can’t remember doing anything wrong but my brain keeps going are u sure let’s look at all your interactions with people and it’s so annoying i just wanna live my life in the present does anyone have any tips
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