whaletuune
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- 5y
Anonymous Anonymous
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- 5y
You are going to be ok. Try to take the approach that it's ok if you don't sleep. Maybe if you need to get up and move around or even sit somewhere else. My therapist told me that self harm thoughts is my brains screwed up way of helping and its presenting me with different options to relieve my anxiety. It's just a thought and not an indicator of what I'm capable of or that it will happen. Just acknowledge it and let it go. Same with the fear of not sleeping I know it's hard but you will be ok. If you lay down again just tell yourself you are resting and stay present. I hope you feel better. I've been where you are so many times
whaletuunewhaletuune
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- 5y
thank you. The problem is I used to be told that insomnia meant I was bipolar crazy. I'm not diagnosed bipolar anymore but I think I'm going crazy all the time. And it hasn't been this bad in literally months.
SoMi1907SoMi1907
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- 5y
@whaletuune So your problem is mainly what you connect with this insomnia, not the insomnia itself. I know it feels scary, I really do.
cocococo
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- 5y
Can you do anything to distract yourself like write? draw? Smell something like a perfume or cologne
SoMi1907SoMi1907
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- 5y
Hey there, how is it now? I totally know how you are feeling! Just try to breathe at first ok? Don't fight the feeling and don't fight the images. Do you know Harry Potter? The first book, where they are stuck in that poisonous plant and just have to relax and let the plant devour them only to find themselves underneath it and in security. I am here and I am telling you that it is exactly like this. Do you understand?
whaletuunewhaletuune
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- 5y
I'm going to go to my dorm bathroom and splash water on my face
SoMi1907SoMi1907
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- 5y
Yes that sounds good! You got this hun!
whaletuunewhaletuune
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- 5y
I don't know usually it's not that bad. I'm going crazy. I feel so isolated. I have not had insomnia so bad in almost a year, I have absolutely no idea what brought this on. It came out of nowhere
SoMi1907SoMi1907
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- 5y
And right now is a difficult time all over the world. We don't feel like it because it doesn't feel like an immanent threat but deep down it makes all of us anxious. And those who are already anxious even more.
whaletuunewhaletuune
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- 5y
I can't stop panicking and even though I'm extremely tired, I can't sleep. I shut my eyes and lie still for half an hour or forty minutes. I drift in between feeling kind of asleep to complete wakefulness. I have no idea if this counts as sleep. I'm so tired but I don't sleep and adrenaline is coursing through my body
SoMi1907SoMi1907
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- 5y
Then don't sleep. It feels horrible because you connect it with so many things, "it's getting bad again, why is it like this..." Accept the fact that right now, you feel like you can't sleep. Your poor body is totally anxious, be gentle with it. Don't be hard on yourself because your brain is confused right now.
SoMi1907SoMi1907
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- 5y
Can you go outside? Not to make it go away but to provide your body with oxygen and to feel more connected.
Anonymous Anonymous
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- 5y
I know what that is like I've felt that too. My friend told me that even if you close your eyes and just try and relax, even if you dont sleep you are still getting rest your body needs. Sometimes the thought of something bad will happen if I don't sleep or I'm so tired I have to sleep just stresses me out more. I haven't heard that about bipolar, but I'm sure your anxiety is latching onto that and trying to prove or disprove if something else is going on here. I don't have bipolar and I struggle with sleep issues. Try not to focus on what this means, I know it's hard. Alot of people have nights where they can't sleep, it just happens sometimes.
whaletuunewhaletuune
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- 5y
then I'll try to rest
whaletuunewhaletuune
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- 5y
My body needs to stop associating my bed with anxiety at least
SoMi1907SoMi1907
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- 5y
You can make it stop by going to bed and accepting that whatever happens just happens. And I know that this is easier said than done... But it's the only thing you can do right now.
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