Does anyone know a lot about hocd ?

You there mate ?

@Ihateocd83 My internet crashed, I apologize :)) What input do you need for the post below?

@YeetingRobin No worries. Just an insight in what you think ?. Do you go through a similar thing ?

@Ihateocd83 First off, you seem really strong! I hope you get through this, as your story seems especially tough and hard. :)) Got the images and such, just let it go. Don’t worry about it, don’t make a clear answer. Just continue- switch the topic. It seems hard, but once you continue it, it’ll help you reduce the anxiety AND the sensations to begin with. I have been through “men are on my mind all the time” and “groinals and getting my words twisted.” First off, you have OCD! It’s a chemical imbalance! Ofc this won’t leave your mind- if it did, it wouldn’t be a disorder! When your mind twists your words, just continue talking normally. When your brain tells you something else, realize that you’re in control of yourself. Do you really have to explain to yourself what you meant? Porn can cause HOCD, due to the way it projects attraction, appeal, and the focus on different body parts. I personally don’t watch porn, I find it kinda acted, and object-like. However, I know of many studies and experiences from other people about that. Try to hold back from porn, recover a bit, and slowly introduce yourself to it, if you have a desire to watch it! I hope this helps! Feel free to ask me anything else!

@YeetingRobin No ive stayed away from porn. Thing is im depressed aswel im having a really tough time. I also get that i think i look gay sit in a gay way and i feel like im checking myself the way i walk or stand and just carry myself every guy looks attractive its like ive put a spotlight on them. I keep looking in the mirror and saying who am i. Its exausting and i get a headache everyday and ive started to get angry with my thoughts. I dont know how its got so bad now im 37?. I havent been like this since my breakdown at 22 😞

@Ihateocd83 Ok, you’ve stayed away from porn. We’ve gotten that out of the way! The sitting in a gay way and feeling like you appear gay is common among HOCD sufferers. Try to sit how you usually sit, and stay there. Sit with the feeling that you may look gay or carry yourself gay. Depression is really tough, and I’ve never experienced depression. I have been through the process of attempting, but I never went through depression- just internalized homophobia and desperation to escape my feelings. You’re on medication, which is great! Discuss it with your doctor and wait a bit for the effects to show.

@Chai I have found guys attractive before and commented and an ex asked me if i was a little bit gay and i was like course not and got my back up which plays on my mind. But i know it is natural to find other guys attractive without wanting to be sexual with them etc?. I really appreciate your help. Thanks 👍

@Ihateocd83 You gone mate ?

@Ihateocd83 Yee, I was thinking of the best way to respond haha

@Chai Haha ok sorry mate

@Ihateocd83 Any ideas ?

@Chai Guess you didnt have a response to that ?. I never really knew much about false attraction only a 2 years ago really

@Chai Please help mate

@Ihateocd83 Yes I’m here! Notifications get screwed up, so I had to find the post. Oops! There are so many kinds of attraction that I find it baffling. You can have attraction that isn’t romantic, but you do romantic things? You can have a mix? If you try to find out what kind of attraction you’re feeling towards a guy, there’s no use. You’d have to jump through a lotta holes to be content. So why not just... drop it? Putting labels tends to get people with OCD overwhelmed since of its certainty... so why a label at all?

@Chai I cant ever imagine being in a relationship or doing anything with a man. But my mind tells me different 😞

@Ihateocd83 That’s OCD for ya. Don’t fight it. Imagine OCD is a monster. You could always fight it, but it’ll learn. The monster will learn the patterns of your sword. You could speak to it, but it’ll speak back, tauntalizing you. So how do you battle the monster? You starve it off! Make it bored! When it growls, just say heyo enthusiatically! It’ll get confused!

@Chai What kind of thoughts and images did you get ?. I say stuff in my head that i dont make sense. I think of guys in my head all day its exausting and depressing 😞