Cw for Pocd and Semi nsfw? I am a 17 year old girl. I was watching porn and came across an ANIMATED video, when i first watched it i payed no mind to the characters in it. I recently saw the thumbnail again and thought "Holy shit these animated characters are mostly likely minors..." yet continued to click on it. Im very wary when it comes to watching x rated videos, if the video has the "teen" tag in it even, i click away. So why was it different with the animation I found. Theres no clarification that they were minors, but even if they arent, i proceeded to watch it with the thought that they may be. I didnt purposely search children. I dont derive pleasure from watching children be involved in any nsfw situation, it fucking disgusts me to hell and back so this is testing me apart. I would NEVER purposely find content with children in it. Did i think it was ok bc it was animated? bc it had no confirmation that they were children? i have obsessively searched for the animator and translator all of her comments. No sign of them being minors,everyone seems to love the video, so are we all pedos or is it okay. I watched the animation fir the actions not for the characters. I dont know how to reverse this or what to do and i feelnlike a disgusting monster.

And you even stated you watched it for the actions, not the characters. What do you mean by that? Trust me you aren’t a pedo

I think its less of a "oh no im a pedophile" and more of a "im a disgusting monster who didnt just go to a different video" and im feeling so bad over it

A lot of animated videos are actually grown women, but they look like they are younger cause it’s animated, especially when It comes to like anime. Ik in anime they show 15-16 year olds with bodies of a grown full adult, but that’s cause the age of consent in Japan is 14 years of age

The fact you don’t even click the video that says teen truly shows you are not a pedo at all!

I did something in a similar vein a few days ago. I looked up a hentai that I had looked up years ago that had a Shota in it. But I wasn’t looking at it specifically because it was a shota comic. And if anything I was picturing myself as the shota (which in itself is strange since shota is boys and I’m female) and having those depicted acts done to me. Maybe I have an undiscovered daddy kink. But normally I would never look that up. If I go read smut fanfiction I always make sure that there’s no underage shenanigans going on, as people are considerate in their tagging thank goodness. But the fact that I listened to my brain and looked this hentai up after I knew it wasn’t a good idea makes me feel horrible

I dropped out of school to pursue my dreams. My best advice is to find your passion, and try new things in life. And ughhh parents are annoying, my parents tried telling me I don’t have ocd and once i got diagnosed they stayed shut lol. Parents are used to their generation they don’t know anything about todays world.

The name of the video i watched was 'under the kotatsu animation' nd seeing the thumbnail has become a trigger for me. If you search what i said, you will see the thumbnail featuring two girls and their grandmother at a table