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I agree, sometimes when I think of my future boyfriend/husband or a being intimate with a man, it's just a man because idk what he'll look like since it's not "real" and the doc says it might as well be a cardboard cutout then you're a lesbian
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Yes I agree with you so much.I wonder do you think women are more beautiful than men? This triggeres me so bad :/
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@miragunes Yeah I see a lot of better looking women than men and sometimes I think "she's hot" or "she has a nice body" and sometimes I'll get aroused and it makes me think I want it. But for men sometimes that doesn't happen and it feels like I'm forcing myself to like men sometimes..can you relate?
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@a01 ı feel like this way.I hope we are straight :(
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also it doesn’t say that if you have crushes on male celebrities/characters you ARE lesbian, it says lesbians are still allowed to have crushes on male celebrities/characters
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I agree. It’s definitely a useful source for actual lesbians, and wasn’t made with hocd in mind (it shouldn’t be anyway). I think most people, especially ones with hocd, can relate to some of the signs, though.
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@backtogiality yes which is why people should really avoid it 😭 it will be immensely triggering for anyone who is heterosexual/bisexual with soocd
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@Ness well at least for the majority ^
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@Ness is there kasterdoc for gays or bisexual?
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@agriculturalindustries I mean for males
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@agriculturalindustries If there is, I haven’t heard of it. The masterdoc was made specifically for lesbians by a lesbian, but I’m sure there’s one out there. I’d advise you not to go looking for it: even if you intend it to be erp if you’re not careful it can be really triggering (a lot of the signs are minimal and experienced by people of all orientations).
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@backtogiality :/ i see. Sometimes all these makes me think that I hocd is life, i am so scared of it.
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Absolutely ı agree.For example, I often think women are more beautiful than man, but what does that have to do with lesbianism and bisexuality?
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I learned about that doc today. So maybe my comment is not true. But if it says "if you like a fictional man then you are lesbian", it is hilarious.
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omg yes!! It feels like intuition, doesn’t it? Like if you had a sign over your head that it would say “lesbian” or “bisexual” despite not relating to those labels? I love that we all think we’re in denial as well when this is all we worry about lmao 💀
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@lypc idk why it didn’t tag my response as a reply lmaoo sorry
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the master doc is for lesbians not for people with hocd... :/
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I have been doing okay for the past week or so and was really happy i felt that i was getting back on track, but today i went on tiktok and i saw something triggering which was “i thought i was a lesbian for 4 years until i met my now boyfriend” and it triggered me very badly, i have been crying all day and i can’t seem to make myself feel okay. i feel like im lying to myself that im not lesbian and i truly want men, but when i get any thought about men it feels disgusting and wrong and not me, i don’t want men i feel so sick i want to get out of this. i always felt so happy as a lesbian im so stuck i don’t want to be with a man. i have a loving girlfriend i just want to be happy with her.
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I watched the trailer for the movie “Am I Ok?” and got completely triggered. Basically a 32 yo woman discovers she’s a lesbian seemingly out of nowhere. I was triggers and did some research (bad idea) and apparently some people who are gay have never had romantic or sexual interest in people of the same sex until one spontaneous moment of discovery. Now I’m worried that this could be me!! I’ve never had a long term relationship, have had crushes and fantasies but back out when things get too close for me. I do prefer my little fantasy world guy but now I’m wondering if maybe I missed something and am in denial, even if I didn’t know it.
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hi guys i added to list. i’m freaking out i just need some help. signs of comphet (comphet is when lesbians who don’t know it and just follow norms and believe there straight) ive felt: “I never felt anything when kissing boys and totally thought that was normal… I talk to men, go on dates, but I think it’s to keep my life ‘interesting’ and have something to talk about with friends.” • lack of deep, natural emotional connection • • talking about my boyfriend to other people made me feel “cool”, “worthy”, “interesting” and felt like a way to prove myself • being able to clearly articulate all the reasons I liked a guy crush/my boyfriend (he’s smart, funny, kind, handsome, etc) whereas with a girl crush I can’t exactly put my finger on why I like them but I’m just naturally drawn to them • never missing my exes or feeling heartbroken about them (i would feel sad from being lonely and no longer having that daily routine of having someone to talk to, but didn’t necessarily miss that specific person) • i was always very hesitant about “becoming official” with a guy i would be seeing and would make him wait before deciding to date because i “didn’t know if i really liked him or not” only being aroused by their the man’s desire for me • Thinking I was cooler than other girls because I didn't spend any time thinking about how cute boys were or being "boy-crazy". I was under the impression for a while that I must just be less shallow than other people because I didn't really take looks into account when I had a crush on a boy, I only factored in their personality. chasing the ego boost more than emotional closeness agreed with friends or mom about someone being attractive even if you didn’t feel it—another big flag being bored, ditching serious commitment, chasing the drama again it also feels like i’m acting a lot of the time to make it more romantic cause i cringe When you fantasize about men, it is mostly just enacting a kind of narrative. More focused on movement than features- the men in your fantasies might be faceless or blank-featured or their bodies might symbolize some emotion. you might not even be in the in the fantasy, but instead another faceless woman might be. You might even imagine yourself as the man. The narrative follows the sexual script, but the details are more vague and abstract and might even shift and change throughout the fantasy. i dont care about like what guys looks like. like my sister saw a video of a guy working out and was like got damn omg gotta like that. if i saw that i would prob be like damn to try and prove something to myself but i don’t really understand what i should feel it feels like i relate to so much comphet after i read it on reddit and it doesn’t even make me want to cry and die anymore. it feels like i tolerate men or have done it for attention or because i thought it was going to happen at some point cause it was what was happening around me like sister and friends. i’m scared ill never find someone i want to marry that’s a man it feels like it’s all just comphet and i don’t want to actually be with a man the more my meds work and anxiety lessens the more the fear feels real because i can’t get myself anxious about it anymore. i can about other stuff but not this. i always told myself i don’t chase i attract. maybe thats cause i never wanted a big badly enough. maybe what im missing is a girl what if that ends up feeling more real Straight people don’t need to talk themselves into what’s hot. like during the hocd break i would try and like see what was “hot” and and be like yeah that’s hot. i also i refused to masturbate to women and not think about it because i didn’t want it to prove that i still liked it but i mean idk if that was left over hocd
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