Ihateocd83
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Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Im 37 mate whys that ?
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Ive been struggling since i was 22 and things have gotten so much worse like ive been in the closet all this time 😞
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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It feels like i want it. But i just want to be with my gf. I images in my head of guys in wet boxer shorts and i comment like so sexy 😞
AliS914AliS914
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That’s normal. That doesn’t mean you’re gay. I’m a professional model, I see guys in boxers all the time and I see how sexy they are, that doesn’t mean I’m gay lol.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Ali Shaaban Thats made me feel better thanks mate. Just really feels like im gay but i think deep down i know i want to be with women
AliS914AliS914
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@Ihateocd83 Exactly. You want to be with women deep down. The only thing that’s making you doubt is your ocd. There’s a lot of people in the same position as yours.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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This morning i looked in the mirror and said im gay. And before that my mind was going i want a boyfreind and things like that its like my mind wont stop
AliS914AliS914
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It’s okay. It’s part of ocd. The reason why you are saying this.. it’s cause of your ocd lol.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I just dont know how i can have men on my mind all day. I hate it 😞
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Bryan I keep saying in my head i know im gay its like i cant stop it 😞
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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Also i keep thinking of my life as this gay man having to meet gay freinds and be accepted. I just play out scenarios in my head 😞
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Bryan Do you know what thats opened my eyes even tho my mind is trying to tell me i want to be with a man i know i could not feel that way. I work with 2 good looking mate and i love them but defenetly not romantically. And still my mind is trying to tell me otherwise even whilst writing this lol
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Bryan So my mind is trying to convince me i have a crush on a certain celebrity. I thought about going out for a drink and i pictured him standing there at the bar. Trying to throw another thing and scenario at me ? 🤷♂️
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Bryan Yeah i have a gf why do you ask ?
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Ihateocd83 I just say a lot of nonsense in my head and its very distressing 😞
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Bryan You there mate ?
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Ihateocd83 Mate ?
AliS914AliS914
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@Ihateocd83 I think what’s triggering your ocd even more is you asking for reassurance all the time, which worsens your ocd.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Ali Shaaban Yeah i know mate but sometimes my thoughts are so detailed. 😞
AliS914AliS914
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@Ihateocd83 So are mine! And it feels real. But I know I’m genuinely not attracted to men even though it feels like it, and it doesn’t bother me any more cause I accepted it. Even though I hate it, I accepted these as just thoughts, not real genuine thoughts.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Ali Shaaban Thanks mate hopefully one day we will all be better 👍
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Bryan I swear it just feels like im in denial its horrible 😞
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@Ihateocd83 You there mate ?
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I dont even know mate i just have these thoughts in my head. I dont think it helps that im a worrier aswel
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