I have random sparks of love for my partner... But right now I really feel like I don’t love my partner... I hope obsessing all the time is what caused me to believe I’m not sexually attracted to him... I cried last night about things... while he was asleep of course..

It does... I get worried.. bc I feel like I don’t wanna be with him anymore... which makes me sad... I don’t wanna move on... 😞😞

@Mandy7710 Me too, in my situation I get anxiety surrounding the thought of seeing or talking to my partner. But, there is no logic behind it, anxiety is a response to danger. That is illogical as my partner is not dangerous, she is very much the opposite. Anxiety and OCD work hand in hand, have you seen a therapist?

@epr I get worried... bc I don’t feel anxiety... 😞

@Mandy7710 And that's ok! I rather the thought without the anxiety if anything. You might just be dealing with the intrusive thought, the best thing to do is say, "ok, I have a thought, that's alright, it doesn't mean anything, move on" Our brains are so complex, there never is a black or white explanation. But if the thought goes against your choice, then no need to be scared just say well "no, that's not what I want to choose". Empower to rewire :)

@epr I’ve been obsessing for years and years.... 😞but I never wanted to break up... then I focused on his flaws... over and over again... now even without anxiety I feel like I really don’t want him to touch me... it hurts...

@Mandy7710 Well that's still good that the anxiety is gone. Maybe speak with a therapist about the intrusive thoughts. Separation and distancing is also a symptom of anxiety. It makes us want to be alone, run away, shelter or avoid. Don't be scared, you are strong. Challenge your thoughts. I do recommend though seeing a therapist.

@epr I was able to kiss my partner gently last night without feeling off but right now I feel numb..

@Mandy7710 Been overeating and shopping too much due to stress...

@epr I’m nervous bc I feel calmer.

@Mandy7710 That is ok :) take little baby steps, there's no rush or urgency. The numbness could possibly come from the fact that your body/mind has come accustomed to the ROCD/anxiety. Don't fret, there are times when I feel numb or distant too, that's apathy, that comes with anxiety. I really do suggest you speak with a therapist though.

@epr The thing is I feel calmer but still feel off when I kiss him. I did cuddle with him for a long time earlier and it felt wonderful ❤️

@Mandy7710 And that is ok too! It's wonderful a wonderful feeling. Somethings work differently for everyone, there is no rule to how you feel.

I stare at him everytime he gets dressed I find him very attractive! But when I think about sex I still get scared...

@Mandy7710 Yeah that's fine too :) I can't comment on the sex part but as I said before. Anxiety and OCD play a part on our physical state, they can be detrimental on our abilities.