- Username
- mktropeano
- Date posted
- 5y ago
girl. the same thing literally happened to me when she came out on twitter and I also have hocd. and social media makes it sooo much worse! I would advise to not give in to checking (I struggle with this so much, to the point where it feels automatic now too!). and it feels SO real, but just remind yourself that it’s ocd and move onto doing something that will keep you busy. We can get through this:)
mktropeano yes i feel you. before hocd, i was able to watch tv shows that have gay characters like orange is the new black with absolutely no problem. never questioned or doubted my sexuality during those times. i actually missed those days.
i can relate!! i remember a couple years ago when my HOCD was at it’s peak, i was so triggered seeing youtubers coming out. i was so consumed with thoughts like “what if i come out like them and im just in denial right now?” and i would get so much anxiety. this ultimately just proves that OCD is very real. i think when we experience those times, we just have to accept the anxiety and the thoughts that we get and try not to fight with them.
adrienne tell me about it!!! literally the worst. i used to be able to watch those w no problem and now i struggle so much. same w looking at my instagram feed! it’s the worst
Yes... Before this I also never questioned or doubted even one in my life and don't even bother who r gay or not..... I really missed those days... Seriously.... It's choking
It's seriously hell for any straight girl.... Means identity crisis...
It's hell.... Can't tell u... Horrible punishment fr any straight girl
girly i saw that vid in my notifs today and i didn’t click on it because i KNEW it was gonna trigger something in me. it’s all just OCD. we’re gonna get through it
I really struggle with my instagram and twitter feed too!! and I find my brain latches on to a certain ‘type’ of lesbian (which rotates when the ocd gets tired of the last one) and it just feels SO real
Wow I relate to all of this. It’s just fear, I feel the fear too
adrienne same!!! i remember when my hocd spiked i tried to watch “everything sucks” i think and within the first episode the girl said she was a lesbian and i had to turn it off right away. triggered me so much! i thought i got past that then i saw this on youtube and now i’m all worried agajn :(
mktropeano wow we honestly all feel the same way and its somewhat nice to know that! just proves that we all are experiencing ocd! we’ll all get through this!
thank you omg. i know it’s weird but it’s almost refreshing to hear that someone deals w the same thing. makes me feel better that i’m not alone and just feel a little less crazy!!???
But for how long
m.a.d. mine does that too!!! and it’ll be types of people that i would never find attractive if my ocd wasn’t there. ocd is SO weird like that
mktropeano yes!! I find I take a step back and think “these aren’t even qualities I admire in a person, so I wouldn’t even want to date her if I was a lesbian?”
m.a.d. yes and then i either have a step back into reality and i’m good OR ocd decides to say i like a different kind of looking girl. and then it’s just a cycle. talking about it now it’s honestly making me laugh a little bit!!??
adrienne i know right! i know it sounds weird but i think it’s refreshing to know people deal w the same thing. i’m just glad i’m not alone!
i’m watching a youtube video on being bisexual and i’m freaking out omg. this is giving me so much anxiety. she’s saying stuff like “yea i never wanted to kiss a girl or have a relationship with a girl; i just always thought they were pretty” , “for all my life i was attracted to guys and always wanted a boyfriend” and stuff like that. i’m freaking out so much because it sounds A LOT like me. i’ve never seen a girl in that way until my HOCD hit and i’ve ALWAYS loved guys from the time i was little. now i’m doubting everything again. so many things are going on in my mind rn and i’m so confused
I wanted to look up videos of how to recover from Bi sexual ocd but it’s a theme I struggled w back in 2018 and it went away and ever since i was living my life and now it’s back … literally went from harm ocd to bisexual ocd and now I’m getting extreme false attraction and groinal responses. And I saw a TikTok girl saying she had intrusive thoughts about being a lesbian and she came out as lesbian 4 years later and I just can’t stop sobbing. I don’t wanna be attracted to girls I’m sorry. Nothing against them but I feel grossed and can’t accept it. I can’t even do erp because I cannot accept these thoughts. My third time w this theme- what if I’m in denial? Can someone please help me overcome this??
A girl on tik tok basically confirmed my biggest OCD fear of being gay. Her video said “if you feel a certain way about {masculine female athlete}, you’re not straight. This is your sexual awakening.” Iv ALWAYS been triggered by this female athlete because she is an open lesbian and very masculine and I get intrusive thoughts and feelings that i absolutely HATE. Im so triggered right now because now OCD is saying this is more than intrusive thoughts/feelings and is actually sexual attraction. I absolutely hate the thought of me being gay.
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