trigger warning maybe so idk who knows andrea russett but she’s a youtuber and she just posted a video coming out saying she’s bisexual and it triggered me soooo much. like i’m so scared that i am when i literally have never felt attraction to a girl at all like that. any time i think a girl is pretty i automatically jump to that conclusion now. and i always have to check and look at her butt to see if i’m attracted to it. like social media makes it all worse too. i almost do it out of habit now which makes me hate myself for it bc i’m mistaking it w attraction but when i try to tell myself it’s just ocd my brain tries to twist it into thinking that i’m actually bi!!! it just sucks and i’m so stressed about it

girl. the same thing literally happened to me when she came out on twitter and I also have hocd. and social media makes it sooo much worse! I would advise to not give in to checking (I struggle with this so much, to the point where it feels automatic now too!). and it feels SO real, but just remind yourself that it’s ocd and move onto doing something that will keep you busy. We can get through this:)

mktropeano yes i feel you. before hocd, i was able to watch tv shows that have gay characters like orange is the new black with absolutely no problem. never questioned or doubted my sexuality during those times. i actually missed those days.

i can relate!! i remember a couple years ago when my HOCD was at it’s peak, i was so triggered seeing youtubers coming out. i was so consumed with thoughts like “what if i come out like them and im just in denial right now?” and i would get so much anxiety. this ultimately just proves that OCD is very real. i think when we experience those times, we just have to accept the anxiety and the thoughts that we get and try not to fight with them.

adrienne tell me about it!!! literally the worst. i used to be able to watch those w no problem and now i struggle so much. same w looking at my instagram feed! it’s the worst

Yes... Before this I also never questioned or doubted even one in my life and don't even bother who r gay or not..... I really missed those days... Seriously.... It's choking

It's seriously hell for any straight girl.... Means identity crisis...

It's hell.... Can't tell u... Horrible punishment fr any straight girl

girly i saw that vid in my notifs today and i didn’t click on it because i KNEW it was gonna trigger something in me. it’s all just OCD. we’re gonna get through it

I really struggle with my instagram and twitter feed too!! and I find my brain latches on to a certain ‘type’ of lesbian (which rotates when the ocd gets tired of the last one) and it just feels SO real

Wow I relate to all of this. It’s just fear, I feel the fear too

adrienne same!!! i remember when my hocd spiked i tried to watch “everything sucks” i think and within the first episode the girl said she was a lesbian and i had to turn it off right away. triggered me so much! i thought i got past that then i saw this on youtube and now i’m all worried agajn :(

mktropeano wow we honestly all feel the same way and its somewhat nice to know that! just proves that we all are experiencing ocd! we’ll all get through this!

thank you omg. i know it’s weird but it’s almost refreshing to hear that someone deals w the same thing. makes me feel better that i’m not alone and just feel a little less crazy!!???

But for how long

m.a.d. mine does that too!!! and it’ll be types of people that i would never find attractive if my ocd wasn’t there. ocd is SO weird like that

mktropeano yes!! I find I take a step back and think “these aren’t even qualities I admire in a person, so I wouldn’t even want to date her if I was a lesbian?”

m.a.d. yes and then i either have a step back into reality and i’m good OR ocd decides to say i like a different kind of looking girl. and then it’s just a cycle. talking about it now it’s honestly making me laugh a little bit!!??

adrienne i know right! i know it sounds weird but i think it’s refreshing to know people deal w the same thing. i’m just glad i’m not alone!