watertilt
- Date posted
- 4y
watertiltwatertilt
- Date posted
- 4y
Oh shit I almost asked a friend if they think I'm homophobic for it. JUST caught myself.. whew. Nope not gonna be doing that. Frick.. I need to calm down.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 4y
People who say SOOCD is fake and it’s homophobia are some of the dumbest and most idiotic, uninformed, entitled, stubborn, idiots. Don’t listen to these people. They don’t know us. I’m currently stressed out atm. I’ve been doing erp and I’m currently feeling like shit. Like the thoughts have slightly disappeared (the thoughts were about me asking for reassurance and people telling me I’m in denial, or that I watched yaoi trap hentai when I was 12-13) and now I feel like shit. I’m scared that this isn’t HOCD and that I’m gay or bisexual in denial. I’m scared.
watertiltwatertilt
- Date posted
- 4y
@SOOCD Yeah I was actually having a fairly decent day until this happened. I am so tired. Just want one day where I'm ok. Gotta keep fighting tho.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 4y
@watertilt I just hope that I can fight through this, it’s just the porn that my HOCD constantly latches onto and I can’t let go
watertiltwatertilt
- Date posted
- 4y
@SOOCD Yeah not sure how you do erp for porn.. I'm grateful that I've never personally seen porn to be an indicator of an identity... In my opinion, human bodies react sexually to sexual things. For something like that, help from a specialist might be a crucial aid to you.
Mainevent215Mainevent215
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
I totally understand this. For me it's made it worse because I feel like I'm a bad person because I was happy when I was diagnosed and something final made sense after months. Also I asked my friend and that didn't help at all.
watertiltwatertilt
- Date posted
- 4y
Yeah definitely can't ask my friends... I almost did.. and then I caught it .. just another uncertainty we have to let be. 🙄
EsosaEsosa
- Date posted
- 4y
Here’s a tweet that I found “I really need folks to know, cis or trans, that questioning your identity is OKAY. But if the fear is making you miserable or panicked or dysfunctional, please don't feel as though you have to tough it out.” Many people don’t understand but some people do. It’s important to get help whether you’re dealing with normal questioning or SO-OCD
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 4y
That tweet kinda triggered me a bit. I’m scared because I’ve been doing erp and I’m currently feeling like shit. Like the thoughts have slightly disappeared (the thoughts were about me asking for reassurance and people telling me I’m in denial, or that I watched yaoi trap hentai when I was 12-13) and now I feel like shit. I’m scared that this isn’t HOCD and that I’m gay or bisexual in denial. I’m scared
watertiltwatertilt
- Date posted
- 4y
Yeah I'm coming to realize it's better to stick with people who know about ocd rather than traipsing around the open internet looking for support at random. The internet can be a harsh place but yeah there are people who can understand. I think this might be the crux of my soocd.. I feel as tho i am doing something wrong if I don't figure it out.. so my brain won't just let it go. Being ok with not knowing is a hard concept... But yeah I'm trying.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 4y
@watertilt It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. I’ve been doing ERP for the past 2 days and I feel like crap for doing it.
watertiltwatertilt
- Date posted
- 4y
@SOOCD You can do it!
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 4y
@watertilt Thank you for the words of encouragement watertilt! It’s been a tough road with my HOCD and it makes me feel like crap because it makes me feel like I’ve either turned gay/bisexual in denial, or that I’ve been in denial all this time. It also makes me feel like I enjoy the thoughts when I don’t. It’s horrible
Mainevent215Mainevent215
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
I really get this it's crazy. I'm glad you guys are trying.
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