This feels so real i want my old life back. I hate this life so much this wasnt suppose to happen 😞

@Bryan Did you ocd make you actually think of men ?

@Bryan Makes me think that i actually want to be with a man. I have a constant feeling in my chest and stomach

@Bryan Yeah i hope so. Makes me think of scenarios with men. Like meeting up with them etc. How can i think of this shit all day/night 😞

@Bryan Reading that and my mind was trying to tell me go down on the man. Fuck this shit

@Bryan Some guy on here was trying to give me his email so we could talk i was like naa mate your alrite found it odd. And my mind is telling me i would suck a mans cock haha. Fucking lies

@Bryan My gf doesnt like me doing it to her she doesnt like it. But i used to love going down on my ex 😊

@Bryan Ive had some thoughts around my kids and dad recently

@Ihateocd83 I think the gay thing tho is my main theme 😞

@Bryan What do you mean mate ?

@Bryan No sexual stuff. My mind is so fucked honestly

@Bryan Is that what it is ?

@Bryan Why do i have a feeling in my stomach most of the time ?

@Bryan So you recommend then. Im seeing my doctor friday 👍