Ocd has been kicking my ass today. Whats my dumb ass do, I google shit. Working through some marriage stuff and my harm ocd loves to attack my wife and makes me question everything about me. I've had 4 people confirm I have ocd and I still question it. My NOCD therapist is off this week and haven't been able to talk to her since last Monday. Oh this is so hard. Luckily I'm meeting with my other therapist here in my area this evening. It just sucks, I've been superstitious about seeing black crows in our yard, I dont like the number that is associated with the devil, I dont really like the number 6 in general. Ugh just so much. Im mentally exhausted.

That’s okay :) I was in ERP for two months and I still relapsed. Every one is different. Some people have an easier time succeeding than others. I hope you can find a way to relax this week and enjoy the holiday. Sending love

@sheeby Thank you so much I needed that encouragement :)

@sheeby My recommendation is to stop googling, and just handle it. Within a week I’m sure you’ll feel much better. I stopped googling yesterday and I already feel amazingly better than two days ago.

@Dre83 Of course. Reach out anytime. If I were you, I’d look at the dunning Kruger effect. It takes time to learn complicated things, you’re only in the pit of despair now, and you are on your way up!

@sheeby Yeah I agree. I know thats the answer but sometimes I just do it like a dummy. This to shall pass. You're awesome friend!

@sheeby I will look that up this evening for sure!

@Dre83 Thanks! Have a good rest of your day

@sheeby You too:)

@sheeby Okay I just read into the dunning Kruger effect. What I took from it is that we over estimate our knowledge or skills so we don't look inadequate. How does this relate to ocd cause I don't understand.

@Dre83 I just mean the graph! At first we think yes!! ERP we can do it!! We got this!!! Then we enter the pit of despair when we realize how much work and how scary it actually is. Eventually we get to a point where we become experts in ERP and move on with our lives:)

@sheeby Ah ok.

Yes, I'm off the rest of the week after tomorrow which I look forward too. Medication is looking more like and option if I can't defeat this without it.

@Dre83 Try to just focus on doing things that you usually like, and push through there. Medication will help but therapy is the end all be all. You can defeat this. Progress is not linear. How long have you been in therapy?

You are right this thing might win a battle here and there but it aint winning the war.

@Dre83 I also struggle with the number 6. You’re not alone!