I am really upset right now, mad. My sister knows about my real event ocd that involves her, the thing is that happened 10+ years ago and she has beeing rude and mean as fuck recently. Dont know if its because her period or what, but she has been being an asshole with me, my mom and dad and now just because I said that probably she gave me covid because she went to doctor recently and started feeling cold and fever, as me as well and now she is accusing me indirectly of entering her bedroom while she was asleep last night. Like really? REALLY? The only thing that she knows I can end up killing myself, because I cant forgive myself in the past. I dont want to see her again nor talk to her anymore. I would never do that. I still cant believe and she is still talking about it. Really. I cant go on.

You sister is obviously having a hard time. I understand how this is upsetting to you, but if you were in her place: do you think being accused of giving you covid is any fun? + you really should be careful with making other people responsible for you being suicidal. I would understand it if she hurt you mentally or physically. But we cannot demand that our surroundings cater to our needs all the time. Triggers can happen anywhere and it is OUR responsibility to deal with them.

Smh man, I totally understand what you're feeling right now. Remind yourself that you're an empathetic person at your core as are most OCD sufferers. It's hard as fuck to be the bigger person but approaching things with compassion and love in your heart will always bear fruit. Who knows, maybe your sister has been through more than you know and maybe she even suffers from something undiagnosed. You know how painful that can be. As someone who is constantly suffering from your own battles, it's hard to remember that we need to also take care of those who've been taking care of us. Our issues do put a strain on our families but we can help the situation by being there for them when they need us too. This is the hardest thing to do, trust me I know. I'm literally in a similar situation but while I can't control how others act or treat me, I can choose to control how I react or treat them. I want to always be a good person, no matter what anyone else does for...or against me. So I choose to approach things with love, as often as I can. In the end, I want that to be my legacy. When I die, if anyone talks about me I want them to always say that I had a big heart, that I loved unconditionally and that I was compassionate and forgiving. I want that because those are the values that I admire in others. Best of luck to you my amazing and beautiful friend. Everything is gonna be alright. :)