Anyone else feel angry at their OCD? Like why do I have to accept a disorder that makes me miserable? I see people talk about their neurodivergence, and I see people openly accept that depression and anxiety is part of them. But no one I know accepts that OCD is a part of them. Cause it’s not who we are. It’s the last thing I’d want. Sorry for the rant but I miss who I was before OCD. I remember how happy and carefree everything about me was. Idk I’m tired.

Is it so wrong that I don’t want to accept it? I see the life I had before ocd and I long so much for it return. I often see posts similar to mine and responses to it being like “you’re still you but perhaps you’re better because of OCD” and it’s like... I feel worse? And maybe that’s why I can’t accept it. Cause it doesn’t feel right with me. Sorry for being such a Debby downer btw! I’m not knocking anyone who accepts OCD!! I just feel like I won’t be that person.

@Keep ur chin up :) It's not wrong, but I completely understand where you are coming from. It all seems so unfair! You're not being a Debby downer you're getting how you feel out which is great! And maybe that's a part of acceptance, is communication and being honest with yourself. I know you're not knocking anyone, neither am I. We will get there some day. It's really hard to see it sometimes but when you hit rock bottom the only way you can go is up no matter how long it takes

Do you ever think that maybe one day you’ll wake up and feel like you were before OCD? Cause I agree, this doesn’t feel normal. My body is in a constant state of anxiety and it doesn’t feel like this is how my life should be.

It’s nice to know there are people who can relate. I think I would be just as upset accepting it. Cause I truly know I never could actually accept

I meant, I’m in recovery/still recovering and I just can’t accept it. It doesn’t sit well with me at all because of how troubling it all is. Not trying to be pessimistic either or a Debby downer, it’s just my reality at the moment :/

@Keep ur chin up :) So when you see an intrusive thought how or what do you do? Do you just let the thought be there and wait for it to pass or do you still agree with the thought or say maybe maybe not?

Have you tried looking at alternative therapies? That’s what I’m doing right now. I will do anything to go back to who I was before ocd. People don’t seem to understand that it feels like 24/7 misery.