Can anyone with harm ocd explain their symptoms and what the daily struggles are like?

It can be anything and everything really. It can go from not wanting to make someone a cup of tea because you’re scared of poisoning them so you avoid it. One of the more awful ones is just being out in public and then having a thought that you want to do something awful to a person like stab them. Obviously utterly random so that’s why I just try and move on from it but some can be awful if they’re constantly at you.

Mine is constantly thinking I am going to kill my wife or people around me :(

Yeah, that’s one of the worst ones. Does it come up with specifics in “what you’re going to do”? Also, what do you avoid?

Sometimes like stabbing or suffocating or punching. I try not to avoid much cuz I know it only fuels the ocd but any show, movie, or being alone with my wife can be tough cuz I have only been dealing with this for a few months and I went 30 years not knowing I had this

Yeah, it’s crazy isn’t it? I looked back at my history and you can see my OCD forming from a bad time in my life into what it is today. I never understood myself, throughout secondary school something was obviously wrong but I could never properly explain it. People used to say I was just a “worrier”. Now I understand most of it and can see it as a process but that doesn’t stop it taking over you, it’s an awful thing to live with. Maybe try yourself and see where you can maybe see it starting and then see where your main ones are? Mine came from hospitals due to mum being ill. However, it then spirals into other forms of OCD.

Mine switches from worrying I would accidentally harm someone like with my car or something to worrying I have in the past to worrying I want to harm someone and getting thoughts about that. Also worry about inappropriately grabbing someone or sexually assaulting someone. So lots of different themes

For me a lot of the time my biggest fear is that I will lose my mind and commit violent acts. Before I got it under control, I would research serial killers and mass shooters for HOURS a day to convince myself that I’m nothing like them. Of course that ends up backfiring because for most of them, nobody really knows why they did it, so the uncertainty persists. That’s what harm ocd is like for me. I’ve gotten better though

That sounds a lot like me when did yours start