SOOCD but now I only fear that I’m not sexually attracted to men? I analyze every interaction I’ve had with my SO and have really begun to doubt that I actually love him/am sexually attracted to him. This is based on my reaction to erotic photos, him naked, etc. This seems to be more upsetting to me than the prior obsessions

The problem is some of this is based on things I’ve always experienced. Like, I’m not aroused just by looking at naked men. So it’s hard to tell what is happening.

@wellwellwell But I really appreciate you sharing that you’ve gone through this. It’s pretty sad

@wellwellwell i don’t think a lot of women are aroused by just looking at naked men, but this is something i worry about too, so i understand.

@missbluesky Yeah, I have a husband and sex isn’t very sexy for us so this plus that makes me go insane. Like I’ll never like sex with him😞 HOCD sucks

@wellwellwell It’s totally normal not to be aroused just by staring at a naked man. Like I don’t just get turned on by naked men, I have to have some kind of connection to them to feel truly aroused, aka, with my husband. But it definitely doesn’t help when you have SOOCD. Everything is triggering 🤦‍♀️

for me at least, i feel like i want to be around him, i like how he looks, in my brain i find him “sexy.” i don’t like feel anything in my vagina unless i’m like doing something sexual or about to, which freaks me out

@missbluesky Basically exact same

@missbluesky that definitely helps. I went on the ace forums and it was so triggering (honestly I think it was more compulsive bc i was trying to prove I wasn’t gay to myself lol) because obviously ace people don’t feel sexual attraction and can’t really define it, so they overexaggerate what it’s like.

@backtogiality yeah, but i’m also terrfied that i don’t actually feel sexually attracted

@backtogiality what does it feel like for you?

@backtogiality i have to be honest though, i’ve never been in a relationship and i’ve only had sex twice with a guy i wasn’t that attracted to

@missbluesky Honestly I don’t really know. I’m 17 so it’s more of a constant thought in my head like ‘okay wow you are really attractive’ and wanting to look at them all the time lol

@backtogiality can i ask a sort of nsfw question?

@missbluesky sure!

@backtogiality do you masturbate to just the thought of having sex with a guy?

@missbluesky yeah, sometimes - but I also don’t watch porn, bc I’d feel weird watching two people have sex haha

@backtogiality see, i can’t do that. like i don’t know why but i have to be watching porn? that seems like a gay thing

@backtogiality how old are you?

@missbluesky I’m 17 - but honestly everyone has different preferences and different things work for different people so I wouldn’t worry about it - maybe, maybe not is what we have to say I guess

@backtogiality yeah but like that’s a real, concerning question. that seems like something a lesbian in denial would do

@missbluesky All kinds of people watch porn! I know so many people of all sexualities that enjoy it - sexuality has really no influence on whether you like it or not.

@backtogiality no, i’m saying the fact that i can’t just masturbate to the idea of having sex with a guy

@missbluesky I read erotica, I can’t just like think about that and do it.